God works in mysterious ways. I can't take any credit for a discovery , when i was at a low point 30 years ago , drowning , it was the only thing available to grab hold of. I was told the only way to get out of the drowning state i was in , is to make a covenant with God. To make a decision, to turn my life and will over to God, every day all day if needed. I've done that exact thing every day for 30 years. As the result ive had and still am having a personal relationship with Christ. I know His Spirit and what it does , i know what its like to have His Mind . Over that 30 years, i happened across a "Bible teachers Bible teacher" , maybe the best the world has ever known. I knew this because what he was teaching about Faith, and the Holy Spirit , i was experiencing , and had experienced it before i heard him teach it. It took about 20 years of thinking about what was happening to me before i started to put 2 and 2 together, what i had and am fulfilling is the true act of saving faith used 248 times in the NT. Pisteuo! I told you i made a decision to turn my life and will over to God? Pisteuo defined in the Greek is "A personal surrender to Him, and a life inspired by such surrender." It's the same thing.
I'd love to be a brave man , but the truth is i just can't contain what He's done and is still doing to me. I have been trying for the better part of 10 years to find a way to prove what saving Faith is intellectually, or with facts that can be seen , and not violate the personal things Jesus has done in me. I think i'm making perfect sense , but i've never had one person "ever" understand or agree with what i'm trying to share. Although i'm extremely sad about that and have taken nothing but ridicule for it. I never stop surrendering myself to Him.