so i been gone for a bit had to take a break then had health problems which almost killed me. No one seem to care i might die i could not help but be bitter these people i had helped for so long even open my home to them and gave them a place to live did not care, they said i was not a "priority". So i came home after two hospital stay which I got no sleep during because every hour they were pushing something new in me and taking blood, and all the neighbors rush up to me and want me to start doing stuff for them, this one needs this this one needs that. I had just gotten home from the hospital and was not to do to much or it could put my life in real danger. One thing i had was a blood clot in the arm, i was not suppose to lift with it because the clot could move and travel to my lungs or heart and that would be bad, so here i am an hour out of the hospital carrying cases of drinks up 3 flights of stairs. I had had it. When i was laying in the hospital all alone no one visiting me that night, i lay watching a lighting storm and talk to God. I was on the six floor and my room had a window floor to ceiling of the whole wall looking out at mountains. I watched the sky. I felt so alone but God was with me and I was then not so alone. I was ready to go I thought no one even cares why be nice, it does not good, why help people, where are they now? So I came home bitter. I was in some of the worse pain i ever felt and I have been in a lot of pain before. I got better and did not want to speak to anyone any more. I called some one to check on them when that person need my help. I told him i needed his help to if i was to help him I could by him food or wash clothes but not do both, so I said trade you i'll buy you food and do clothes at your place, I'll bring a movie. He said you can do clothes any time even if you don't. So it was settled. I was in such a great mood going to the store, I bought Him what he needed, on the way to his house I was happy, I remember my great mentor Jesus who said it is better to give than to receive. I never got what he meant. I had never experienced that. This time I got what Jesus meant. Had a great time with the guy just talking. so today the neighbors were not speaking to me I had been so grumpy i scared them. So i reached out to them to help them with there problems once again. I got talking to this one neighbor who hates people but loves animals. This woman has always bugged me she lies about everything
but i listen. See was saying this person should be put to death and that person for what they did to animals. I am not a good speaker but i saw an opening. I said well i follow God and he says human lives matter more than an animals. I said we eat animals she said i don't i said at one time you did, I said and God says there is nothing wrong with that. I said God gave us animals for food, another neighbor heard me and came running over agreeing. He started arguing with her that a mans family should not be put to death over a man killing an animal the lady yelled kill em all. The man neighbor was so upset he left. i left to but then called her and ask if she would like some pizza we just got, she is poor and mumbled she can not afford pizza. I said that is why we give you some when we get some. we can't afford it either but some one gave us the money for it, so. i talk to her some more came home and she called to thank, and started again about how people should die, I listen to her her life about how horrible people had been to her and how she lost faith in people, she claims she has God but I don't see that in her heart. I realize she was not unlike me when i came home from the hospital i had had enough. so had she. every chance I got i threw in something Jesus did or said and she listen. I found ways to complement her with things Jesus said. She liked this. In stead of preaching your a hypocrite, which she is, and your damn to hell if you go down that road i was positive. she said she does not forgive. I told her we are forgiven as we forgive. I threw as many seeds as i could. Then i saw.
God says anger does not produce the service to Him that He requires so be slow to anger. All this time i had been getting angry and going now where, but when i listen to this woman I found things i could love about her. I did not reject her but accepted her where she was at, Just as Jesus took me for me where I was at. I was able to love her when before i could not stand her.All because I did not get angry and I listen to her. People just want to be heard. Jesus said a gentle word repels anger. This is the way we should all preach with gentle words and true love for the person we are listening to. I think I am beginning to see, and I which you the sight that comes from the light who is Jesus.
but i listen. See was saying this person should be put to death and that person for what they did to animals. I am not a good speaker but i saw an opening. I said well i follow God and he says human lives matter more than an animals. I said we eat animals she said i don't i said at one time you did, I said and God says there is nothing wrong with that. I said God gave us animals for food, another neighbor heard me and came running over agreeing. He started arguing with her that a mans family should not be put to death over a man killing an animal the lady yelled kill em all. The man neighbor was so upset he left. i left to but then called her and ask if she would like some pizza we just got, she is poor and mumbled she can not afford pizza. I said that is why we give you some when we get some. we can't afford it either but some one gave us the money for it, so. i talk to her some more came home and she called to thank, and started again about how people should die, I listen to her her life about how horrible people had been to her and how she lost faith in people, she claims she has God but I don't see that in her heart. I realize she was not unlike me when i came home from the hospital i had had enough. so had she. every chance I got i threw in something Jesus did or said and she listen. I found ways to complement her with things Jesus said. She liked this. In stead of preaching your a hypocrite, which she is, and your damn to hell if you go down that road i was positive. she said she does not forgive. I told her we are forgiven as we forgive. I threw as many seeds as i could. Then i saw.
God says anger does not produce the service to Him that He requires so be slow to anger. All this time i had been getting angry and going now where, but when i listen to this woman I found things i could love about her. I did not reject her but accepted her where she was at, Just as Jesus took me for me where I was at. I was able to love her when before i could not stand her.All because I did not get angry and I listen to her. People just want to be heard. Jesus said a gentle word repels anger. This is the way we should all preach with gentle words and true love for the person we are listening to. I think I am beginning to see, and I which you the sight that comes from the light who is Jesus.
