Secret Schizo

[redblue22]

Do you feel you have to keep your mental health secret? From who especially?

Do some people tell you that you should keep it secret?

Do some people disbelieve that there is anything wrong with you?

Do some people try to shame you?

 

[FutureAndAHope]

Do you feel you have to keep your mental health secret? From who especially?

Do some people tell you that you should keep it secret?

Do some people disbelieve that there is anything wrong with you?

Do some people try to shame you?

I had a mental heath issue some years back, and I am currently under a Forensic Order. People who know about the Order are very critical of me, and judge me incorrectly. My life is great I have a happy family, am married, have a son. My walk with God is really good, I enjoy prayer, and enjoy God. I enjoy the occasional computer game to relax. But the people in my life can not look past the clinical judgment, every time they see any slight change in the tone of my voice, or hear me mention "Oh I think God might be suggesting xyz" they judge me as insane. This is really hard for me as I love the Spiritual side of life. BTW I don't hear voices or anything, just some times when praying might receive a thought or feeling that I think is coming from God.

As examples, one time I was praying about how to help my young musician friend who had left the church to go into the clubbing scene. I prayed for him for some hours and felt led to start a Christian night club. I mentioned this to my brother who was a Christian, and he and his wife went straight to the doctor and said "I think you need to increase his medication he is having an episode". This kind of stupidity get on my nerves. I am 100% of sound mind, happy in my life, then I have people like this judging me all the time, it is what makes me react, if I indeed do.

I truly feel I have put up with enough fools in my life time. My mother pushing medication, my brother. It just makes me cranky. I don't need the stuff my life is great, but every moment I am under a microscope.

So back to the question do I hide it? You bet I do.