Now that the cat...

[rtodd5011]

is out of the bag about my sexuality to my wife, I just dont know what to think. I just feel depressed most days. Yes, I am regularly taking my meds. I just dont understand why she would want to still be with me, she says im very delusional and paranoid and that she doesnt think that I am gay. I cant even hardly say the word "gay.". I think that she is in denial and that she would be embarrassed to get a divorce because it would get out in the open. But yet here we are, i just feel like I am going through the motions, I feel lonely for something that will most likely never happen. I pray that God would take away this aching pain. Being with the same sex is not going to answer my lifelong feeling of being close and having a bond with the same gender. I have searched online for a guys support group but cannot find anything, I feel like that would be the greatest help right now. Please say a prayer for me. And dont ever think you can hide a secret, especially if you have a mental illness...

Thanks,

Richard

 

[Jacob Jilg]

I'm not full gay, but my taste in attraction swings bicurious among many other sexuality things that I've discovered about myself thanks to the internet and its unusual superfluous abundance of free inappropriate content. I'm not full hetero either because my sex life is sort of asexual/aromantic as I'm still a 30 year old virgin who hasn't dated since high school.

 

[BartApoplectic]

Hi Richard, maybe I missed something, but, are you a diagnosed schizophrenic? And since this is a Christian forum, are you seeking support resisting homosexuality?

 

[rtodd5011]

Hi Bart, I have been posting in this area of christian forums for several years now and wanted to post this here, I have schizoaffective disorder. I do have conflicting sexual issues in my mind and have not found a christian forum that is active. I am, and have been a Christian since 1982.

Richard

 

[BartApoplectic]

Got it, thanks. I have a loved-one currently ungoing the evaluation/diagnostic process with psychosis and gender identity issues. Sexual orientation is, understandably, a very polarizing issue in the Christian community, but (to my surprise), so is mental illness. I'm afraid this will encourage my loved-one to stay in hiding. It's all kinda new to me, and challenges some of my beliefs. I can't imagine how it affects you (or any Christian with serious mental illness)