- Mar 24, 2011
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Hi there,
I just wanted to open and honest about what is going on in my marriage with some fellow brothers and sisters. The situation is that I am newly married to the love of my life, but that things are souring in a big way. I've known my wife for about 10 years, she is newly saved and I was saved in 2010. My wife is bi-polar and suffers with depression. This wasn't news to me, and there were definitely problems before we got married, but we both felt led by the Lord to get married and so we entrusted everything to God.
I know in my heart that the Lord wanted us to be married but there has been a constant fighting and unhappiness in my life since we got married and it is taking a toll on me.
On the positive side my wife is a sincere believer, seeking after the Lord. She wants us to center our lives around God. She is not really going out of her way to hurt me, it is more a consequence of her bi-polar condition and the fact that she is extremely introverted.
What I am having trouble with is that emotionally, I feel pretty beat up. She has major depression and mood swings and she takes out her feelings and frustrations on me. She has a bad anger problem and I on the receiving end of a lot of it. I am a pretty sensitive person and it hurts me quite a bit.
On my side I have been too controlling and also having an anger problem towards her. She needs a lot of help; she needs help getting up, keeping a direction and focus, taking her pills, eating right etc. I have to be involved in her life at a level that isn't normal, kind of taking the role of a caregiver in some ways. This has led me to overstep my bounds in some areas, and led to bitterness in both our hearts. I'm backing away from that, and I have to admit that I have no idea how to love my wife as I should. I feel very hurt and frustrated, and feel like I am getting more anger from her than love.
I know I am a broken person trying to do Jesus' job when I need to let the Spirit work through me. It's just a lot harder than I ever thought it would be. Thanks for listening.
I just wanted to open and honest about what is going on in my marriage with some fellow brothers and sisters. The situation is that I am newly married to the love of my life, but that things are souring in a big way. I've known my wife for about 10 years, she is newly saved and I was saved in 2010. My wife is bi-polar and suffers with depression. This wasn't news to me, and there were definitely problems before we got married, but we both felt led by the Lord to get married and so we entrusted everything to God.
I know in my heart that the Lord wanted us to be married but there has been a constant fighting and unhappiness in my life since we got married and it is taking a toll on me.
On the positive side my wife is a sincere believer, seeking after the Lord. She wants us to center our lives around God. She is not really going out of her way to hurt me, it is more a consequence of her bi-polar condition and the fact that she is extremely introverted.
What I am having trouble with is that emotionally, I feel pretty beat up. She has major depression and mood swings and she takes out her feelings and frustrations on me. She has a bad anger problem and I on the receiving end of a lot of it. I am a pretty sensitive person and it hurts me quite a bit.
On my side I have been too controlling and also having an anger problem towards her. She needs a lot of help; she needs help getting up, keeping a direction and focus, taking her pills, eating right etc. I have to be involved in her life at a level that isn't normal, kind of taking the role of a caregiver in some ways. This has led me to overstep my bounds in some areas, and led to bitterness in both our hearts. I'm backing away from that, and I have to admit that I have no idea how to love my wife as I should. I feel very hurt and frustrated, and feel like I am getting more anger from her than love.
I know I am a broken person trying to do Jesus' job when I need to let the Spirit work through me. It's just a lot harder than I ever thought it would be. Thanks for listening.