Things are not looking so good here for me. Since I was baptized in 2008 I had been a very believing christian and it seemed to have been a very good idea to follow Jesus. But in 2010 my dad died and since about that time I am struggling. I do believe in Jesus but I also search through other religions like Islam to find meaning and spiritual proofs in life. I often hope and believe that God is deeper and higher than how some people have made him out to be in history and presence.
I really love religion and its attempts to integrate and reconcile man with God. So I am often listening to spiritual music, usually old christian music.
I have found that in the 60's, 70's and 80's we rested more on the commandment to love your neighbor than on all the legalistic bible things we emphasize now. So I am mostly living in the past now even though I am not old myself. I have trouble understanding the rivalry, the mindblindness towards other faiths, the general lack of charity between us human people.
We always seem to think, God must hate us for what we do. But is God love or is God hate? What is our true image of God like? Do we have a dangerous cutthroat as our divine Father or do we have, instead, a wise and friendly king who is famous because He himself bore the pains of rejection and hatred up unto the cross? I think we had a weak Jesus and since we started to abhor weakness again especially in the very difficult 2000th years, we have issues.
I know that life can be a blessing if you have family, are not dirt-poor, have friends and if the times are good. Why do we not create that for ourselves and the others again? Why do we shiver in fear of the almighty God when He is our strength to rely on? This is really puzzling me because I cannot recognize the american protestant church anymore and instead can only trust in the catholic church even though I am a baptized lutheran.
What is still keeping us from loving each other, from helping each other, especially when we are needy?
I really love religion and its attempts to integrate and reconcile man with God. So I am often listening to spiritual music, usually old christian music.
I have found that in the 60's, 70's and 80's we rested more on the commandment to love your neighbor than on all the legalistic bible things we emphasize now. So I am mostly living in the past now even though I am not old myself. I have trouble understanding the rivalry, the mindblindness towards other faiths, the general lack of charity between us human people.
We always seem to think, God must hate us for what we do. But is God love or is God hate? What is our true image of God like? Do we have a dangerous cutthroat as our divine Father or do we have, instead, a wise and friendly king who is famous because He himself bore the pains of rejection and hatred up unto the cross? I think we had a weak Jesus and since we started to abhor weakness again especially in the very difficult 2000th years, we have issues.
I know that life can be a blessing if you have family, are not dirt-poor, have friends and if the times are good. Why do we not create that for ourselves and the others again? Why do we shiver in fear of the almighty God when He is our strength to rely on? This is really puzzling me because I cannot recognize the american protestant church anymore and instead can only trust in the catholic church even though I am a baptized lutheran.
What is still keeping us from loving each other, from helping each other, especially when we are needy?