Hi Nord
You said, "
David Berkowitz, Charles Manson, Wayne Gacy among many others are good examples of people being totally consumed with the devil's influence. Of course not everyone becomes sick, depraved human beings like them, and thank God! There are still numerous, uncountable amounts of people who will just follow their way, until they die. No faith or Biblical knowledge. Life is what is was to them, and many will hang on to the bitterness and anger, harboring it til the day they pass on. I know people in my own family who will likely do this."
How true! I find it troubling and very sad that some (many) people never "get it", never repent and never turn; and, are therefore, by their own choices, condemned to an eternal hell. What ever can they be thinking of?!!! Well, they are not really thinking about anything but themselves and the moment.
They are like pack rats -- dropping this, to pick up that, only to end up with worthless less-than trinkets in the end -- forfeiting life's and eternity's greatest treasure. The vanity and foolishness is staggering, mind-boggling. The loss incomprehensible. Not to mention the untold damage they do in this life -- as their cursed lives intersect others'.
But, as you pointed out -- but, for the grace of God, that would be us. We would still be in that horrible darkness on the slippery slope to hell. God's mercy is breathtakingly amazing and awesome. Glory Hallelujah!
When I think about once-profane, murderous, reprobates like Nicky Cruz and David Berkowitz and others -- who were radically and miraculously saved from such demonic lifestyles, -- I am humbled by God's kindness and I am greatly encouraged. If God can save those wretches, there is still hope for others --no matter how dark things may appear. "His arm is not too short to save."
You also stated, "
When I do sin, I feel bad for it and confess it to the Lord. I have a couple of sin problems I'm having trouble shaking." It is a process of sanctification. But, remember, we are admonished to "lay aside anything, any encumbrance, any weight that hinders and strive for the prize on high" (paraphrased).
There simply is NO sin worth retaining or holding onto it. All sins defile and weaken and cheat us of our glory. They give ground to the enemy. And, I for one, am determined not to give him an iota of ground. Let him torment someone else; I will glorify God and serve God. Let all the demons scramble and scream every morning "Oh no, she's up!!!"
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***Prayer and fasting can help with strengthening and provide breakthroughs.
***Exposing the sins to the light of day strips them of the power of darkness.
***Memorizing appropriate Scriptures arms us and prepares us for the temptations. After awhile of defeat, Satan leaves off of an area of temptation once he sees we are not caving. But, then we can expect him to come round later to see if there are some cracks.
***The stronger you get, the more useful you are to God and the greater threat to Satan and his demon buddies. Ha! Ha! Ha!
REMEMBER: "We always have the victory in Christ Jesus. In Him, we are more than overcomers." And, "God will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able; with every temptation, He makes a way of escape" -- so prepare with Scriptures and look for the open door or window to escape!
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