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Oh, but I want to add I'm not going to kill myself. I know that last post was a little scary.
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Hon, I don't post here much anymore, but back when I did, I was kind of a broken record about asking this....but are you getting any counseling and/or meds for your OCD? You may be. I haven't been here lately so I feel the need to ask. Really, this is OCD-driven. I know it doesn't seem that clear to you, but someone on the outside can see it for what it is. If you aren't getting any help, I would encourage you to do so. ( Even a family dr can prescribe meds for OCD.) The thing is when something is OCD driven as your issues are, even if you were to resolve this "vow" thing, the OCD would find something else to latch onto. Believe I know, I've been there. I still battle it, but there are some things that help. Try to be pro-active about getting some help if you haven't. Truly, it is the OCD that is making you not able to see these situations, such as the roommate versus the family issue for what they are.Thanks, Catherine. Jokes aside, it's really not going away. I just feel it all over me. I would give almost anything to just know as an absolute what was or wasn't said, but I don't believe that can possibly happen. Unfortunately there's no "transcript" of my thoughts.
Unfortunately, I've almost gotten to the point where I would want to move out. I feel guilty all the time about being here and I feel miserable every time I look at or talk to my housemates. Sometimes I get to the point where I just want to die. After all, compulsions and obsessions I feel like I have slowly vowed my life away to the point where anything worth having is off-limits. Christianity used to be a joyful faith and a driving motivation in my life, now it just feels like a gun to my head.
Thank you, Kaykay, I'm actually soon to see a Christian counselor. I might need a doctor, too, who knows. Again thanks for your support and advice.
Thanks, Catherine. Jokes aside, it's really not going away. I just feel it all over me. I would give almost anything to just know as an absolute what was or wasn't said, but I don't believe that can possibly happen. Unfortunately there's no "transcript" of my thoughts.
Unfortunately, I've almost gotten to the point where I would want to move out. I feel guilty all the time about being here and I feel miserable every time I look at or talk to my housemates. Sometimes I get to the point where I just want to die. After all, compulsions and obsessions I feel like I have slowly vowed my life away to the point where anything worth having is off-limits. Christianity used to be a joyful faith and a driving motivation in my life, now it just feels like a gun to my head.
Oh, but I want to add I'm not going to kill myself. I know that last post was a little scary.
What is your definition of roommate? In New Zealand a roommate is someone who actually shares your room. I know it is just a technicality, but maybe it will ease some pressure if you see it that way. I will pray for you.
Anyone have any insight on my situation? Thanks.