I had a bit of a "meltdown" at my church Luncheon Club a few weeks ago when I was under a lot of stress. I started crying and saying I was angry at God because He obviously does not care about me. Yes I KNOW that was a stupid thing to do and say but while most people there were understanding there was one lady who started preaching at me and talking down to me saying "I was sulking at God" because "things weren't going my way". In the end I left early in part to get away from her as she was making me feel worse.
Since then I get the distinct impression that she is avoiding me and when I managed to get to her to apologise last week she just said rather caustically "it was quite a rant wasn't it but let's put it behind us". She then asked another lady to come and sit between us both which I suspect was so she wouldn't have to sit next to me. I may add I don't think she even likes this other lady much from what she has said about her in the past!
Now I know I should not have behaved in this manner and don't need anyone to tell me that. I still feel ashamed of it but what this holier-than-thou woman said and her behaviour towards me has made me feel worse. It's like she thinks I'm crazy and that if she just sits next to me she will catch whatever I have! Before all this I used to get on well with her.
Has anyone else ever had this problem? Also how should I deal with my anger and bitterness towards this other person as I know it is not pleasing to God and the last thing I want is for Satan to use it for his purposes.
If God, the person who I hurt the most with my words, can forgive me ( I told Him I was sorry) why can't other people?
Since then I get the distinct impression that she is avoiding me and when I managed to get to her to apologise last week she just said rather caustically "it was quite a rant wasn't it but let's put it behind us". She then asked another lady to come and sit between us both which I suspect was so she wouldn't have to sit next to me. I may add I don't think she even likes this other lady much from what she has said about her in the past!
Now I know I should not have behaved in this manner and don't need anyone to tell me that. I still feel ashamed of it but what this holier-than-thou woman said and her behaviour towards me has made me feel worse. It's like she thinks I'm crazy and that if she just sits next to me she will catch whatever I have! Before all this I used to get on well with her.
Has anyone else ever had this problem? Also how should I deal with my anger and bitterness towards this other person as I know it is not pleasing to God and the last thing I want is for Satan to use it for his purposes.
If God, the person who I hurt the most with my words, can forgive me ( I told Him I was sorry) why can't other people?