If salvation relies completely upon Jesus Christ then I can't do anything except just trust that I'm saved through Jesus Christ. However, if I continually sin then that means I don't know God after all and I'm not saved because I don't have any faith in Jesus Christ. So I must repent and turn away from my sin without God's help in order to know God. If that circumstance were true then it would seem that's by works. If the only way is Jesus Christ and I can't do anything but to accept God's grace then that is by faith. Why do I keep sinning though? Why can't I stop it? I've been reading the bible everyday, going to church twice a week, praying a lot. Asking the holy spirit to communicate the deepest parts of me to God by his power through Jesus Christ. I continue to willingly stumble because of my impulsive behavior but I am genuinely asking God for help. I managed to stop it on my own before but eventually my impulsive behavior takes over again and again. There's nothing I can do but to trust in Jesus and hope that he will forgive me for this. I feel so condemned when I read stuff about me not knowing the father because I continue to sin. "No one who abides in Him sins; no one who sins has seen Him or knows Him." 1 John 3:6. I have been able to stop this habit for up to 3 or 4 months at a time and I felt pretty much the same as I do now. Because when I stop sinning on my own I feel like I'm getting to God by works and that you can't do according to Paul. I continue to willingly sin and ask God for help because I really do want to change. I just need the knowledge and the will to do it. It's times like this where I think if God really can't save everyone because of free will and sin. Then he just can't save me because of the type of personality I have. I'm impulsive, stubborn, easy to trick, lacking faith, insecure, lacking trust and all sorts of things that God hates. I can't help it that's who I am and I'm genuinely trying to change into the best person I can be. That's not enough though. It's so complicated! My thoughts are all over the place. If I truly knew God then it would be easy to stop sinning because of how much better it is not to sin. I haven't even tasted that place yet so how do I trust in what I can't see or don't know?