So.. I just want to start off by saying I'm a Seventh Day Adventist, and my whole family is. We're pretty strict Seventh Day Adventists.. and I was wondering why I've been feeling this way.. I've been feeling depressed lately. I'm doing bad in school no matter how hard I try, I study every night. I still don't understand anything. Sometimes I cry because I think I'll never get anywhere with bad grades and my parents always flip out on me. They say I dont try, but I really do try. I spend countless hours nights going over material I learn in school and I still end up doing bad. I get bullied often.. Another thing is that my parents don't want me to get a scholarship... When I can get one easily. I'm an excellent athlete in Cross Country and Track, but because college meets are on Sabbath they don't want me to get a scholarship because If I do, I'll have to run... It's like they want me to reject every letter I get.. What choice do I have? Bad grades.. (I'm talking like 60-70s for grades) and I'm a junior in highschool. Is god planning something for my life and is this all happening for a reason? Or just my life sucks right now.. I'm tearing.. I got a bad score on my psat also.. and I'm a junior.. Isn't that when it counts?