Hi
I started reading the bible because I had problems in my life, and I knew that people in my family wished I read some in it.
I think I developed a good understanding of Jesus, as well as the Old Testamente.
Then I got my diagnosis as mentally ill.
Somewhere along the line I lost faith in God, since I was struggling with my sexuality, and doubted that God would accept me.
This led to problematic behaiviour with extreme binge drinking and agressive behaviour. It is now 3 years since then, and as I was given court ordered treatment, I decided to better myself. I think I have come far, but the thing is that I get very sick from the meds. I am overly sensitive to all medications. That makes it even more difficult to oblige with the psychiatrist treatments. Sadly I fond no understanding and no doctors ever believed me. I now have brain damage from medicines and other health issues.
However I do hope that It is not too late to change my ways, which I have tried to do for three years. I understand now, that I need to communicate clearly when I feel threathened by meds(I know sounds strange, but is real for me) or otherwise.
I still feel that real healing in my life, will come from faith, I just wished I had been a little more sincere and strong in my belief of what I was reading and adviced to do from clergy.
All the best
Mottec
I started reading the bible because I had problems in my life, and I knew that people in my family wished I read some in it.
I think I developed a good understanding of Jesus, as well as the Old Testamente.
Then I got my diagnosis as mentally ill.
Somewhere along the line I lost faith in God, since I was struggling with my sexuality, and doubted that God would accept me.
This led to problematic behaiviour with extreme binge drinking and agressive behaviour. It is now 3 years since then, and as I was given court ordered treatment, I decided to better myself. I think I have come far, but the thing is that I get very sick from the meds. I am overly sensitive to all medications. That makes it even more difficult to oblige with the psychiatrist treatments. Sadly I fond no understanding and no doctors ever believed me. I now have brain damage from medicines and other health issues.
However I do hope that It is not too late to change my ways, which I have tried to do for three years. I understand now, that I need to communicate clearly when I feel threathened by meds(I know sounds strange, but is real for me) or otherwise.
I still feel that real healing in my life, will come from faith, I just wished I had been a little more sincere and strong in my belief of what I was reading and adviced to do from clergy.
All the best
Mottec