Since my husband has died, I have changed. I only see a shadow of who I used to be and I miss that person who knew how to be happy and carefree...even in the midst of problems.
I have accomplished things and people admire me but I feel so empty inside. I received a small compliment from one of my supervisors and when I was driving home and start to process what she said, I burst in tears because it has been a long time since anyone has actually noticed the small things I do on a regular basis. This can't be all God has for me. I wish I could feel a sense of what I need to do to change me or my situation or whatever... The ability to actually enjoy simple things is one of the things I miss the most. Almost 7 years and counting.
I have accomplished things and people admire me but I feel so empty inside. I received a small compliment from one of my supervisors and when I was driving home and start to process what she said, I burst in tears because it has been a long time since anyone has actually noticed the small things I do on a regular basis. This can't be all God has for me. I wish I could feel a sense of what I need to do to change me or my situation or whatever... The ability to actually enjoy simple things is one of the things I miss the most. Almost 7 years and counting.