I remember one very detailed part. For a majority of my dream, I was praying for others, for the Lord to forgive them and save them. Then, I remember thinking, "I need to pray for myself."
What I remember next was just falling on my knees and Jesus then standing beside me. I didn't look at him but I knew he was there. I couldn't look at him. I remember staring at my hands on the ground. Then I said, "Lord..." And I kind of started breaking down. I told him, "Please forgive me." And I heard, "I do." Then I was crying and I said, "I don't even feel like I deserve to pray to you." And he said, "I want you to," or, "I know." Something like that. Then I was crying more and said, "I'm sorry." And was apologizing. I felt so dirty like I normally do. I couldn't look at him. I felt like it was a dishonor to even speak to him due to how bad I've been. I was crying and said, "I love you Jesus. I really do." Kind of just trying to convince Him because of how bad I live, and he said, "I know." Then, I remember an answer like, "Don't think of who you were before. Think of who you are now." Something like that. I was so emotional in the dream that I actually woke up startled and had tears running down my face. I've been such a bad Christian. I feel horrible, but I don't know if this dream was God or just from my own guilt. Either way it had me waking up crying.
What I remember next was just falling on my knees and Jesus then standing beside me. I didn't look at him but I knew he was there. I couldn't look at him. I remember staring at my hands on the ground. Then I said, "Lord..." And I kind of started breaking down. I told him, "Please forgive me." And I heard, "I do." Then I was crying and I said, "I don't even feel like I deserve to pray to you." And he said, "I want you to," or, "I know." Something like that. Then I was crying more and said, "I'm sorry." And was apologizing. I felt so dirty like I normally do. I couldn't look at him. I felt like it was a dishonor to even speak to him due to how bad I've been. I was crying and said, "I love you Jesus. I really do." Kind of just trying to convince Him because of how bad I live, and he said, "I know." Then, I remember an answer like, "Don't think of who you were before. Think of who you are now." Something like that. I was so emotional in the dream that I actually woke up startled and had tears running down my face. I've been such a bad Christian. I feel horrible, but I don't know if this dream was God or just from my own guilt. Either way it had me waking up crying.