I Feel Alone

[vlinder]

To Life Immortal

I don't feel well. Today is so lonely, I feel like I would be better off dead. I hear about Jesus dying for people and It makes me feel worse. I have trouble believing it. Death doesn't prove love and I don't understand. My family is still angry with me, still isolates me. What did I do wrong? I talk with people I don't know over internet, within the ether and I feel some relief. I feel like I'm in prison, in solitary, serving time for an unknown and mysterious charge.

What did I do wrong; no one will tell me.

It seem silly that a multiple can be lonely. I listen to Christian Rock and I try not to do or say anything wrong. Even with 9 alters, I feel alone and far away. I am afraid of losing the disability appeal, afraid of losing my aunt, just afraid.

I am in prison and I don't wish to die. I have something to offer others. I want to help people but I don't wish to be alone.

 

[madison1101]

I understand your loneliness, and feel very lonely this time of year.

I encourage you to get involved in some sort of ministry that reaches out to people. I work in a rehab with mentally ill people with addictions, which helps me. I also teach Sunday School.

Do some volunteer work, start a Bible study for women at your church. Reach out to people who don't know Jesus. People matter to God.

 

[Dr. Holly]

Vlinder,

I am so sorry sister to hear of how lonely you are feeling. Here is a just for you.

This as madison said is a hard time of the year for so many. It is sad to know that anyone should feel alone. Sweetie, just remember, you are not alone. Any of the members here are only a PM away. I am one of them.

It is important to remember that you are loved. You are loved by people that you don't even realize. Most importantly, you are loved by God. I know that doesn't always help in situations like this, but He cares about how you are feeling.

I'm sure that you are, but continue to lift your feelings up to our loving Father. He is listening. Sometimes we have to go through these hard times to appreciate the blessings that He will bring in to our lives when the season changes. Remember, he is also our provider. So what you need will be provided. All you need to do is ask with a true heart.

I will be praying for you...

"Lord, I just ask that you be with our sister. She needs your comfort and your love. She needs your blessings to rain down upon her life. I ask you Father that you just lift off these burdens and these emotions that hold her back from joy. You have given us all life & your purpose is for us to have abundant life. So I ask that right now you just show her who you are so that he can begin to live in peace once again, free from worry and free from stress. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen!"

God bless you sister, and remember:

[bible]John 14:27[/bible]

 

[Dr. Holly]

Vlinder, just talk to God. Tell Him your worries, and He will get you through this. Remember also, Satan only attacks those who have great purpose in our Heavenly Father. You can take comfort in this, knowing that the Lord has instilled something very special for you. Just keep your eye on Him and He will keep you strong and show you what you need to do. I will continue to pray for you, sister.

 

[VivDaGurl]

To Life Immortal

I don't feel well. Today is so lonely, I feel like I would be better off dead. I hear about Jesus dying for people and It makes me feel worse. I have trouble believing it. Death doesn't prove love and I don't understand. My family is still angry with me, still isolates me. What did I do wrong? I talk with people I don't know over internet, within the ether and I feel some relief. I feel like I'm in prison, in solitary, serving time for an unknown and mysterious charge.

What did I do wrong; no one will tell me.

It seem silly that a multiple can be lonely. I listen to Christian Rock and I try not to do or say anything wrong. Even with 9 alters, I feel alone and far away. I am afraid of losing the disability appeal, afraid of losing my aunt, just afraid.

I am in prison and I don't wish to die. I have something to offer others. I want to help people but I don't wish to be alone.

Oh my dear sweetie....

I'm so, so sorry that you are feeling this way and no one should feel like this. God is always there with you and is always there for you to lean on. The Lord will never leave you and He is very faithtul to your needs. He had made you and He knows the desire of your heart. Pour out your pain, loneliness to Him and spend some quiet time with the Lord. I will pray along side with you.

 

[Lovesherald]

Oh, but Vlinder. Jesus' death didn't just prove love, it defined it.

Jesus died so that man's sins could be forever taken from him. That means past, present, future. The definition of love (from the Bible) says that love keeps no record of wrongs. When Jesus died on the cross, he canceled the debt against us by nailing it to the cross.

So by God's own definition he loves us.

 

[carmi]

I hear about Jesus dying for people and It makes me feel worse. I have trouble believing it. Death doesn't prove love and I don't understand. My family is still angry with me, still isolates me.

In His words:

Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.
John 15:13

Think of people who are trapped in a burning house, and how rescue workers are willing to save these people and get them out - even at the risk of their own life.

Think of people who are willing to give one of their kidneys to someone - even at the risk that it will effect their health and that they might be at risk losing their life if their other kidney should fail one day.

They do not have to do this but they want to, they want these people to live. Jesus Christ wants to save people - only one huge difference: when He saves people than it is not only to prolong their physical life but to give them eternal life.

And whoever accepts Him as their Saviour will be reconciled to God.

I do not know what caused the problems with your family and I do not know how to reconcile you with your family. I have problems with my own family. Sometimes it is not possible to reconcile with people because they might not want to reconcile or they put impossible conditions. But it is possible to reconcile with God.

And God will never leave you nor forsake you - you will not be alone.

 

[Godsgirl481]

To Life Immortal

I don't feel well. Today is so lonely, I feel like I would be better off dead. I hear about Jesus dying for people and It makes me feel worse. I have trouble believing it. Death doesn't prove love and I don't understand. My family is still angry with me, still isolates me. What did I do wrong? I talk with people I don't know over internet, within the ether and I feel some relief. I feel like I'm in prison, in solitary, serving time for an unknown and mysterious charge.

What did I do wrong; no one will tell me.

It seem silly that a multiple can be lonely. I listen to Christian Rock and I try not to do or say anything wrong. Even with 9 alters, I feel alone and far away. I am afraid of losing the disability appeal, afraid of losing my aunt, just afraid.

I am in prison and I don't wish to die. I have something to offer others. I want to help people but I don't wish to be alone.

I've been serving time my entire life for something that I did not do. To be imprisoned for someone else's charge. I have been sentenced to death for some time now, but I refuse to except that charge. See, God created me. It is the only logical explaination for my exsistance here on earth. However why create a being for no reason? Why put me here for no reason other than being someone that others can abuse?

 

[madison1101]

I've been serving time my entire life for something that I did not do. To be imprisoned for someone else's charge. I have been sentenced to death for some time now, but I refuse to except that charge. See, God created me. It is the only logical explaination for my exsistance here on earth. However why create a being for no reason? Why put me here for no reason other than being someone that others can abuse?

Bams, I encourage you to study the life of Paul the apostle, especially his prison Epistles. Some of the most powerful words in the Bible Paul wrote from prison. He talked about being free the most then.

Praying for all of you.
Madison

 

[carmi]

Bams, I encourage you to study the life of Paul the apostle, especially his prison Epistles. Some of the most powerful words in the Bible Paul wrote from prison. He talked about being free the most then.

Praying for all of you.
Madison

Great advice, Madison.

 

[vlinder]

To Life Immortal

Bams. I am sorry about what is happening with you. Is there anyone helping you with an appeal or something? Do you have any kind of support?

I apologize for the wrong choice of words; I was upset at the time. I should not have said I was in prison. It is just sometimes, the isolation gets to be too much.

I am doing better now after much prayer and advice from others. If you need to talk with people, there are people here who care.


Peace and Long Life
~*~ Vlinder/Balafenn ~*~

 

[TheMainException]

I apologize for the wrong choice of words; I was upset at the time. I should not have said I was in prison. It is just sometimes, the isolation gets to be too much.

All of us are in a prison of some sort or another...

 

[TheMainException]

It has been researched and studies do more than suggest that by helping others, lonliness and depression can nearly be eradicated.

 

[TheMainException]

Vlinder,

Sweetie, just remember, you are not alone. Any of the members here are only a PM away. I am one of them.

It is important to remember that you are loved. You are loved by people that you don't even realize.

Me too! Me too! I love you very much...even your alters, I love them too...and you can PM me anytime.

 

[TheMainException]

Great advice, Madison.

I agree!

 

[ysl_75]

Remember you are not alone because our greatest God is up there watching us. Maybe like what they say is true, you should have some extra activities like group praying, bible study and etc.. God bless you.
Hope that you are well by now..