God bless you my dear brother in Christ
God bless you for taking steps to avoid sin
God bless you for talking to a more mature Christian about this
God bless you for being so open and honest about your problems
may God use your honesty and openness about your own weakness to bring GLORY to His name, because He uses the weak to shame the strong!
Trust in the Lord, He is stronger then your weakness, He is stronger then your fear, He is stronger then any conflicting emotions you might have and He is STRONGER then the sin in your life, He defeated sin on the Cross, He defeated death when the grave could not hold Him
you are not alone, you are not left an orphan for this world to chew up and spit out
you are ALIVE with the Holy Spirit
the devil is the adversary, that old crooked Serpent wants you to focus on your sins, he wants you to loose hope, do not listen those lies.
the past is the past
Jesus offers you forgiveness, do not dwell on past sins
only God knows the future, and He has a special plan for you, do not worry about the future
just do what you can right now, and know that you are not working under your own power, because on our own we are all lost
no, not on your own power, but the power of the Holy Spirit, the Living God, who made the Heavens and the Earth and everything in the Earth. THAT is whose power you are working under right now, and sometimes you don't feel it, hey, sometimes I do not feel it either, feelings are dumb, feelings are easily tricked
we do not have to rely on feelings
we KNOW that God is helping us.
thank you again for being so open with your problems, it won't be until you are in Heaven that you will know just how many people you helped by being so honest and open