Hello,
I hope you fellow Christians can help me. I am trying to let my past be the past and move on to a new life with Christ. I have made some mistakes in my past-pretty bad ones and have hurt some people not physically but with words and I have went to them and apologized to them and also asked God to forgive me. 2 people in particular. One person who is a family member accepted and moved on. The words I expressed to this family member was the truth on what I felt in my heart but it hurt them but they have forgave me. This happened 3 years ago. The other person was a church leader. I went to him and apologized and we hug each other and he accepted my repentance oh so I thought. He is turning people away from me now and it hurts. He is bad mouthing me within my local community after the fact (even though I apologized to him) and I am helplessly on what to do. I have went to God several times and repented and asked for forgiveness and I am trying to move on with my life but I feel I am being labeled. People who barely know me but know him will not talk with me whatsoever. I cannot even walk into a church without being judged. I feel that the whole church community is judging me. I thought as Christians we are not allowed to walk in un-forgiveness. So it is almost like I have been black listed. We all make mistakes in life and we pay and learn from them. Been how to you deal with weeping what you are not sowing????
I hope you fellow Christians can help me. I am trying to let my past be the past and move on to a new life with Christ. I have made some mistakes in my past-pretty bad ones and have hurt some people not physically but with words and I have went to them and apologized to them and also asked God to forgive me. 2 people in particular. One person who is a family member accepted and moved on. The words I expressed to this family member was the truth on what I felt in my heart but it hurt them but they have forgave me. This happened 3 years ago. The other person was a church leader. I went to him and apologized and we hug each other and he accepted my repentance oh so I thought. He is turning people away from me now and it hurts. He is bad mouthing me within my local community after the fact (even though I apologized to him) and I am helplessly on what to do. I have went to God several times and repented and asked for forgiveness and I am trying to move on with my life but I feel I am being labeled. People who barely know me but know him will not talk with me whatsoever. I cannot even walk into a church without being judged. I feel that the whole church community is judging me. I thought as Christians we are not allowed to walk in un-forgiveness. So it is almost like I have been black listed. We all make mistakes in life and we pay and learn from them. Been how to you deal with weeping what you are not sowing????