So to give some insight... I was saved in 2008. My husband was Lutheran and insisted only going to a Lutheran church for a long time.. I felt out of place and awkward there.. Just a general feeling of it wasn't where I belonged. So fast forward till last year.. And we had gotten a new pastor and I convinced my husband to try a baptist church, he was saved and we were recently baptized together a few months ago...
That all being said.. I have been having a really really hard time lately with the smallest of things. Things I see on t.v. Just the commercials, or even in the T.V. Shows, where people are swearing, or saying the Lord's name in vain. Or even cartoons that have some violence or shows like Barbie.. I just can't stand them. Or shows that have aliens in them... We also had our girls in ballet and the immodesty of the dresses and some of the dances the older girls were doing just seemed like they were hinting at being provocative. And it just ugh.. It just grates at my skin. Other things get me too that may not get most Christians. Like.. Christmas time.. I have a hard time seeing past the coveting, and consumption and even if we give to charity or help out with things ect.. It still feels like I'm allowing my kids to covet toys for months then rewarding them for doing so. I feel a bit torn, like if I take everything away from them will end up hating me and God cuz they can't do any of the "fun" stuff..
My husband unwinds by watching T.V. I have a hard time watching it so I end up going to bed. He watches football and stuff, and sometimes it's not so much the shows themselves that bother me but the commercials and the messages they are sending. One of the commercials tonight was someone singing and saying "we can make time go back and you wouldn't have ever had that 2nd child" and poof the child coloring on the wall was gone, and the parents smiled. My husband laughed.. And I felt horrible... How is seeing those kinds of commercials and people thinking they are funny and laughing at it while their 2nd child is sitting here wondering why their parent would want them gone! Am I over thinking things? Am I being overly critical? Am I completely losing my mind? Sometimes I believe my husband thinks I'm taking things to far. He has come along way in the last year... So so so far. He is doing bible devotions with the kids almost nightly, and he is a good leader.. It's just these things that have most recently been driving me batty, and he seems to not see what I'm seeing. Iv been praying about it all of course.. But I'm still wondering is this normal? Am I the only one? Lol thanks.
That all being said.. I have been having a really really hard time lately with the smallest of things. Things I see on t.v. Just the commercials, or even in the T.V. Shows, where people are swearing, or saying the Lord's name in vain. Or even cartoons that have some violence or shows like Barbie.. I just can't stand them. Or shows that have aliens in them... We also had our girls in ballet and the immodesty of the dresses and some of the dances the older girls were doing just seemed like they were hinting at being provocative. And it just ugh.. It just grates at my skin. Other things get me too that may not get most Christians. Like.. Christmas time.. I have a hard time seeing past the coveting, and consumption and even if we give to charity or help out with things ect.. It still feels like I'm allowing my kids to covet toys for months then rewarding them for doing so. I feel a bit torn, like if I take everything away from them will end up hating me and God cuz they can't do any of the "fun" stuff..
My husband unwinds by watching T.V. I have a hard time watching it so I end up going to bed. He watches football and stuff, and sometimes it's not so much the shows themselves that bother me but the commercials and the messages they are sending. One of the commercials tonight was someone singing and saying "we can make time go back and you wouldn't have ever had that 2nd child" and poof the child coloring on the wall was gone, and the parents smiled. My husband laughed.. And I felt horrible... How is seeing those kinds of commercials and people thinking they are funny and laughing at it while their 2nd child is sitting here wondering why their parent would want them gone! Am I over thinking things? Am I being overly critical? Am I completely losing my mind? Sometimes I believe my husband thinks I'm taking things to far. He has come along way in the last year... So so so far. He is doing bible devotions with the kids almost nightly, and he is a good leader.. It's just these things that have most recently been driving me batty, and he seems to not see what I'm seeing. Iv been praying about it all of course.. But I'm still wondering is this normal? Am I the only one? Lol thanks.