Attempting to figure out religious/ spiritual truth occupies my mind and time more than anything else. I read, I debate, I pray, I attend liturgy, but remain unsure of what is true. As a result I have spent the past two weeks thinking about what sort of answers the individual searching for God should look for. I also wonder at what point someone should admit defeat and embrace agnosticism.
I can only judge from my own experiences wherein my prayers have gone unanswered for years and my searching seems to only lead to more confusion. From an Orthodox perspective, why would God leave a genuine seeker's prayers unanswered? Am I a fool for persisting in my attempts to believe for so long? Why should I continue looking when it seems to only bring hopelessness?
I can only judge from my own experiences wherein my prayers have gone unanswered for years and my searching seems to only lead to more confusion. From an Orthodox perspective, why would God leave a genuine seeker's prayers unanswered? Am I a fool for persisting in my attempts to believe for so long? Why should I continue looking when it seems to only bring hopelessness?