Hello, let me preface this by saying that I do not have as much knowledge of the bible as many on here, despite being raised in a Christian home. I have recently been considering dedicating my life to God, but I am having some trouble.
I think you can look at any part of the Bible and get something which helps you and encourages you. But you might need to not get hung up about things you don't understand, but keep reading for what is helping you.
"Test all things; hold fast what is good." (1 Thessalonians 5:21)
First, I understand that repentance is a necessary part of salvation, but what exactly is that?
turning from your sin
This includes how our Father draws us to Jesus > John 6:44-45 > so we turn from our sin and trust in Jesus > Ephesians 1:12.
We in repenting are turned
"from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan to God" (in Acts 26:18).
In this process we deny ourselves and take up our cross and follow Jesus > Luke 19:23.
So, we need how our Father turns us from self and the weakness of our own selves, so now we are depending on Him for the ability to get corrected of sinning and get into living and loving like Jesus. We become pleasing to our Father, and all-loving, and able to forgive anyone.
And forgiving others can help you to be sure you are forgiven, I think > Mark 11:25.
So, trust God to do this with you
And consider that if He forgives you and so blesses you, now He desires for you also to be so generously forgiving and to have hope for any other person . . . for all that is possible with God.
Is it simply acknowledging that I am a sinner and completely unredeemable by my own merit,
It is not only understanding, but doing.
or is it actively trying to turn from sin and live a holy life despite the fact that I will certainly sin again whether I want to or not?
Not "trying", but how God is succeeding!
I know this sounds bad, but what if I don't really want to stop sinning?
Yes, it is bad to not want to stop sinning. But if my character makes me still able to sin, this is not honest; so how can this nature make me really-really honestly interested in not sinning, I consider? We need how God is able. And we have the Holy Spirit making
"intercession for us" (in Romans 8:26). The Holy Spirit is honest enough to pray for us effectively. Also, God has ordained us to have mutual confession and mutual healing prayer > James 5:16; so yes, I would say, we need one another to help us.
I mean, if I could snap my finger and not sin anymore without any struggle or temptation I would do it in a heartbeat, but what if I would rather just take the easy way and keep doing what I've been doing?
Well, we might try to snap away the sins that we know about, however doing this only so we can get rid of the guilt and the problems those sins cause in our lives; we might not really do it because we love God.
I guess what I'm asking is, if I intentionally and habitually sin am I not saved?
Turn from it, and do not be only analyzing what label you have, of being "saved" or "unsaved"; but trust in Jesus and be turned from sinning to how God has us pleasing Him and loving any and all people.
I have heard people say different things on the topic, and I'm not really sure who to believe.
Look in the Bible. God can use anything He pleases to help you.
I guess my personal feeling is, if I truly had the love of God in my heart I wouldn't want to sin anymore.
Well, for Christians, we are not perfectly free of sinning, and we do not love God as perfectly as we can. We need more correction. And Hebrews 12:4-11 shows how every child of God needs more correction and we are wise to actively seek our Father for this correction, not to wish that He has nothing to correct us about, but seek His correction which brings us into His love's
"peaceable fruit of righteousness" and being
"partakers of His holiness" < Hebrews 12:4-11.
Does anyone have a definitive answer?
Jesus is our real answer ! ! ! And Jesus has hope for
"all" >
"'Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.'" (Matthew 11:28-30)
God is able, and yes He does care about us all.
It is like how you can be unclear about a person who is in a relationship with you. You can wonder and ask questions and have doubts and try to get answers. But the way to really become clear is to keep sharing with the person and listening so you more and more understand the person. Theoretical answers, alone, can not make things clear about another person, or even your own self. We need to keep sharing with someone in order to get more and more clear . . . but with someone we belong with, who is good for us.
Like this, you can't get clear about God, without getting personal and submissive with Him and trusting Him, and doing the loving that He has you d
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Thank you in advance for any light you can shed on the subject.
We do not need to try to make God and His word answer to us; but we answer to God.
"Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you." (James 4:7)