Catherineanne
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- Hi guys I've been really struggling with unwanted blasphemous thoughts about God and it is making me so unhappy. I try so hard to ignore these thoughts but I feel like God is forcing me to confess and I really don't want too because it's very frustrating. For example if I'm eating or listening to music I will have to stop what I'm doing and go and confess. For
Some reason it makes me so mad at God because I also have horrible death thoughts and horrible thoughts about harm so I feel like if it don't count mess God is going to punish me and make it come true or make it be "part of his will" I'm so angry with great God sometimes and I know it's not right. I feel like I have no relationship with him and I blame him for every frustrating thing that happens or has happend in my life. I feel like I'm restricted when it comes to music like when I listening to music I will get an unwanted blasphemous thought like calling god "stupid" or "serpent" because I feel so guilty for listening to the music with swear words or sexual lyrics.I just feel guilty and it makes me so upset and angry with God even more. I've really thought at one point that God was ruining my life because when I sin and feel guilty I have thoughts horrible thoughts of God threatening me with death thoughts and saying he will punish me if I don't stop which makes me angry with God and then I have the unswayed blasphemous thoughts. I have a lot of anxiety and
I have this fear that god will kill me or
Let something horrible happen to me and makes me angry at him and when in angry I feel he will
Make it happen. I feel like I have no peace and I can't do anything because Its "sin" and also the unwanted thoughts cause me frustration. Please someone help me I don't know why I'm so angry with God I
Really hate confessing because it causes me frustrating and puts me off praying. I also
Fantasise about being someone else and I
Don't know I do this, I think very sexually about being beautiful people and I know
It's wrong. Is imagining to be someone else wrong
Someone really beautiful? I'm happy with the I look but injudt really enjoy it and I think it's weird. Music helps to bring these imaginations to life and thats when I get the unwanted blasphemous thoughts which make me angry because I feel guilty and feel
Like I must confess I really really hate confessing it makes me frustrated. Please please help me someone..
That level of unwanted intrusive thoughts is not right; I would talk to your doctor about it, if I were you. The sooner it is addressed the better.
After that, I would also talk to your minister, if you have one, for reassurance that you do not need to confess in this way. Catholics have a term for this; scrupulosity. We only have to confess actual sins, not every thought that comes into our minds.
I think the combination of doctor and minister will help you to sort this one out. I wish you well.
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