Hi Kemar. . .
My journey through these blasphemous thoughts had brought me to the very edge of despair at my lowest point (about the time I initially posted this message) however it has been 2-3 years along now and I can honesty say that God had done a wonderful restoration and healing in the area of my thoughts. . .
To be honest I cannot say that I am free from these horrible thoughts entirely, and from time to time I still experience thoughts that are every bit as horrific as the thoughts I spoke about when I initially wrote this post. . .but the Lord has graciously set me free from the condemnation of these thoughts. I suppose it was always the condemnation that was the most terrifying part of this horrible experience. Feeling as though the Lord, would cast judgement for these unwanted thoughts, and that fear would in turn make the thoughts much much worse :'(
My heart honestly goes out to anyone who battles with this, and sadly looking at the posts here there are so many that endure or have endured this torment
Like another posted here, these thoughts so obviously reveal the spiritual war we are waging and with such a vicious and merciless enemy. . . however greater is he who is in us, than he who is in this world xx
There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. . . this glorious truth. . that His Grace and Mercy is greater than my sin has been the turning point for me. . .learning to renew my mind to what his word says. . . the fact that we are his beloved children, whom he will never forsake x
Things that have helped me greatly through this experience have been listening to great bible based teaching messages. . .I have particularly found Pastor Joseph Prince (best way to check him out is to google his name) have been instrumental for me in revealing the Grace of the Lord Jesus and his amazing love for us. . .Pastor Joseph Prince has a similar testimony of experiencing unwanted thoughts himself, so I found his ministry tremendously healing. . .I would also completely recommend teaching by Joyce Meyer as well. . .there are so many amazing ministries the Lord has raised up to nurture his people. . .so investing time in listening to His truth I found helped me greatly. . .Truth that the Lord Jesus himself has taken away all our sin, and though we may not be perfect we are being perfected by his beautiful Holy Spirit. . .though we make mistakes (including every single unwanted thought we ever have) he looks at us as though we are blameless. . . .amazing. . .breathtakingly amazing, and I found when I believed that his love for me was greater than anything I could ever do wrong, I was more in love with Jesus, and the unwanted thoughts lost their stronghold and grip over my life. . .like I said earlier. . .I still have these thoughts, but I honestly don't believe any longer that they will condemn me. . .now I feel I hear the voice of the Lord whispering instead. . .give these thoughts to me. . . don't carry the weight or the burden of these thoughts. . .you were never meant to. . .
This has been my journey and testimony and I am happy if you would like to talk about what you are going through x you are not alone here, this forum is a wonderful outreach to help us all realise we are all in this together and that we share similar stories and hardships, which can help us feel less alone though this battle. . .
the Lord Bless you always xx
My journey through these blasphemous thoughts had brought me to the very edge of despair at my lowest point (about the time I initially posted this message) however it has been 2-3 years along now and I can honesty say that God had done a wonderful restoration and healing in the area of my thoughts. . .
To be honest I cannot say that I am free from these horrible thoughts entirely, and from time to time I still experience thoughts that are every bit as horrific as the thoughts I spoke about when I initially wrote this post. . .but the Lord has graciously set me free from the condemnation of these thoughts. I suppose it was always the condemnation that was the most terrifying part of this horrible experience. Feeling as though the Lord, would cast judgement for these unwanted thoughts, and that fear would in turn make the thoughts much much worse :'(
My heart honestly goes out to anyone who battles with this, and sadly looking at the posts here there are so many that endure or have endured this torment
Like another posted here, these thoughts so obviously reveal the spiritual war we are waging and with such a vicious and merciless enemy. . . however greater is he who is in us, than he who is in this world xx
There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. . . this glorious truth. . that His Grace and Mercy is greater than my sin has been the turning point for me. . .learning to renew my mind to what his word says. . . the fact that we are his beloved children, whom he will never forsake x
Things that have helped me greatly through this experience have been listening to great bible based teaching messages. . .I have particularly found Pastor Joseph Prince (best way to check him out is to google his name) have been instrumental for me in revealing the Grace of the Lord Jesus and his amazing love for us. . .Pastor Joseph Prince has a similar testimony of experiencing unwanted thoughts himself, so I found his ministry tremendously healing. . .I would also completely recommend teaching by Joyce Meyer as well. . .there are so many amazing ministries the Lord has raised up to nurture his people. . .so investing time in listening to His truth I found helped me greatly. . .Truth that the Lord Jesus himself has taken away all our sin, and though we may not be perfect we are being perfected by his beautiful Holy Spirit. . .though we make mistakes (including every single unwanted thought we ever have) he looks at us as though we are blameless. . . .amazing. . .breathtakingly amazing, and I found when I believed that his love for me was greater than anything I could ever do wrong, I was more in love with Jesus, and the unwanted thoughts lost their stronghold and grip over my life. . .like I said earlier. . .I still have these thoughts, but I honestly don't believe any longer that they will condemn me. . .now I feel I hear the voice of the Lord whispering instead. . .give these thoughts to me. . . don't carry the weight or the burden of these thoughts. . .you were never meant to. . .
This has been my journey and testimony and I am happy if you would like to talk about what you are going through x you are not alone here, this forum is a wonderful outreach to help us all realise we are all in this together and that we share similar stories and hardships, which can help us feel less alone though this battle. . .
the Lord Bless you always xx
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