Well this morning was a wonderful experience!! I went to the local evangelical church and I just felt a trmedous spirit of love there. I really enjoyed myself there. I felt at times such a strong love and yearning for my Saviour that I was almost moved to tears, to me it felt like a very spiritually uplifting experience. I met a nice woman my age whos just come back from helping in China too. And we had a sermon on a psalm. I felt very happy and came home but then my dad rang.
Well I would have to tell him sooner or later. So he said did you have a nice time at church? So I just bit the bullet and told him. Yes I did it was lovely only I'm going to a different church. Anyway to cut a long story short he told me he was disappointed in me. How I would never be happy and I wouldn't be able to get married in the temple for eternity if I left the church. "The church" meaning the LDS church the church I grew up in. I didn't back down I said how I l still loved our Lord and Saviour and would forever and ever and never would I turn my back on Him. But Dad couldn't fathom how I could ever be happy away from the "true" church.
My mother sounded as though she was close to tears on the phone asking me, when I told her I'd gone to a different church, "what have you done that for?". She said how I had made her "very very upset". I feel terrible as she and my father are going on holiday tomorow to celebrate their wedding aniversary. Mother ended the conversation abruptly with "Well see how long that happyness lasts"
My mormon house mate knocked on the door shortly after I got back and smiled sweetly saying how she missed me at church today. I was calm and said I did go to church today. She said did I go to my parents ward (mormon chapel). I said no I went to a different one. She said with a friend? I said no on my own. She said "oh cool" and left quickly.
I'm feeling very scared and confused. Have I done the right thing? I was so happy when I came home. And I liked how there was such an atmosphere of love in that church. Sure theres an atmosphere of love in a mormon church too. And sure people are caring and loving there just as much as anywhere.
I'm terrified of God being cross at me and not letting me into Heaven or seeing my family on the other side because I turned my back on His church. That fear (though maybe it does sound irrational to you) is very intense feeling right now.
I actually feel very upset. I've never liked how the Mormon Church says DON'T DO THAT AND DO DO THIS AND RA RA RA. You shouldn't ever go in another church? WHY ? cos your scared your going to loose a member?! Sorry but I just feel very upset and I suppose hurt right now. I should pray really shouldn't I?
Well I would have to tell him sooner or later. So he said did you have a nice time at church? So I just bit the bullet and told him. Yes I did it was lovely only I'm going to a different church. Anyway to cut a long story short he told me he was disappointed in me. How I would never be happy and I wouldn't be able to get married in the temple for eternity if I left the church. "The church" meaning the LDS church the church I grew up in. I didn't back down I said how I l still loved our Lord and Saviour and would forever and ever and never would I turn my back on Him. But Dad couldn't fathom how I could ever be happy away from the "true" church.
My mother sounded as though she was close to tears on the phone asking me, when I told her I'd gone to a different church, "what have you done that for?". She said how I had made her "very very upset". I feel terrible as she and my father are going on holiday tomorow to celebrate their wedding aniversary. Mother ended the conversation abruptly with "Well see how long that happyness lasts"
My mormon house mate knocked on the door shortly after I got back and smiled sweetly saying how she missed me at church today. I was calm and said I did go to church today. She said did I go to my parents ward (mormon chapel). I said no I went to a different one. She said with a friend? I said no on my own. She said "oh cool" and left quickly.
I'm feeling very scared and confused. Have I done the right thing? I was so happy when I came home. And I liked how there was such an atmosphere of love in that church. Sure theres an atmosphere of love in a mormon church too. And sure people are caring and loving there just as much as anywhere.
I'm terrified of God being cross at me and not letting me into Heaven or seeing my family on the other side because I turned my back on His church. That fear (though maybe it does sound irrational to you) is very intense feeling right now.
I actually feel very upset. I've never liked how the Mormon Church says DON'T DO THAT AND DO DO THIS AND RA RA RA. You shouldn't ever go in another church? WHY ? cos your scared your going to loose a member?! Sorry but I just feel very upset and I suppose hurt right now. I should pray really shouldn't I?