I need help. I've proclaimed myself as A Christian for a long time. But rarely read the bible or walked the walk. Heck I didn't even know if I was saved. At any rate I prayed last night and am wanting to follow God. My problem is that I've hear of extreme life changes and turn around a, but when I gave my life it was a small change. Now I am reading my bible more and trying to live right. Here's what I need help with. I feel every time I lie or do something wrong I let him down and I'm a terrible Christian. And I'm ashamed of this but sometimes I get embarrassed to talk about God in front of people. Well not embarrassed about him but I feel like everyone is thinking I'm crazy or something anyone had this problem. Land if so how do you get passed it.