Hello all. I have been a Christian for many years but did fall astray a few years. I am now 41 years old. I have been back in church and renewed my commitment to the Lord for a little over a year now. I am on the worship team and really feel as if I am finally growing in Christ. I do have the baptism of the Holy Spirit. I really desire for the Lord to fulfill His purpose in me. But I still struggle with prayer. Sometimes the Lord wakes me in middle of night and I get up and pray. Other times I lay in bed and pray. Sometimes I feel like HE hears me, others I question if He does, although, I KNOW He does and I tell satan to get behind me for I belong to the Lord and don't have time to listen to his lies. Our church has been on a corporal Daniel fast which will end this next Sunday with a healing service.. I am praying for a big breakthrough in my life, salvation for my husband and loved ones and for the Lord's hand to move in our Church.. But I still have such a hard time praying and studying the word. I force myself sometimes. I have watched very little TV during the fast too in hopes to improve my communion with the Lord but find myself sometimes just wasting time thinking or staring into space...And I still feel like I can't distinguish His voice. I want to know when the Lord is speaking to me with assurance and I want to break through this wall. I want to abide in Christ and finally be the mature Christian He deserves. Any suggestions??