Have you ever felt you have finally lost your mind ?

[SHETALKSTOANGELS]

I don't know if I am the oldest person on the forum or not, but in either case I have been a psych patient for many decades. My current shrink told me last week that in terms of medication there is nothing further to be done, I am already on 2 anti depressants and 2 anti anxiety pills daily. ( one is a Benzo )

Have you felt that even putting on your Crocs is too much work ? That just staying in your room and avoiding any potential confrontations, remarks, looks, etc from the public is just something you can no longer cope with, especially if you are big like I am. This is how my agoraphobia began a couple of years ago, much to the chagrin of my mental health providers, who are trying to move heaven and earth to get me to go out and even walk 3 blocks and come back.

Getting dressed is too hard, struggling with the bra, the leggings, and as I have no hair, I have to find a head covering, so I stopped getting dressed altogether. I went on Ebay and bought about $ 300 worth of Carol Hochman, Eileen West and Aria pretty knee length gowns I have OCD, so I shower a lot, most days about 5 times.

Have I reached the end of the road and am now mad ? Is the disinclination of yanking up a pair of leggings the proof that I've really and truly lost it ?

Any thoughts are welcome. I am going to copy and paste this for the depression and OCD teams. The more who read it, the greater chance it may resonate with someone.

Thanks and God bless.

 

[dayhiker]

Sorry I can't relate to your comments. <3 and hugz ... I pray you find something that works for you.

 

[Ken Behrens]

I learned long ago that there is a fine line between madness and genius. Look for the genius, and you may find that you actually have another explanation for everything you feel.

 

[doomsayer2]

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I don't know if I am the oldest person on the forum or not, but in either case I have been a psych patient for many decades. My current shrink told me last week that in terms of medication there is nothing further to be done, I am already on 2 anti depressants and 2 anti anxiety pills daily. ( one is a Benzo )

Have you felt that even putting on your Crocs is too much work ? That just staying in your room and avoiding any potential confrontations, remarks, looks, etc from the public is just something you can no longer cope with, especially if you are big like I am. This is how my agoraphobia began a couple of years ago, much to the chagrin of my mental health providers, who are trying to move heaven and earth to get me to go out and even walk 3 blocks and come back.

Getting dressed is too hard, struggling with the bra, the leggings, and as I have no hair, I have to find a head covering, so I stopped getting dressed altogether. I went on Ebay and bought about $ 300 worth of Carol Hochman, Eileen West and Aria pretty knee length gowns I have OCD, so I shower a lot, most days about 5 times.

Have I reached the end of the road and am now mad ? Is the disinclination of yanking up a pair of leggings the proof that I've really and truly lost it ?

Any thoughts are welcome. I am going to copy and paste this for the depression and OCD teams. The more who read it, the greater chance it may resonate with someone.

Thanks and God bless.

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[doomsayer2]

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[BookofMatt]

I don't think it's a sign you're going "mad", really, but it could just be fatigue and/or a minor loss of motor control. I've been on strong psych meds before which really knocked me out to a point where just getting out of bed was a chore in and of itself. You might want to talk to a doctor about it.

As the old adage goes, though, those who are insane don't know they're insane, so it sounds like you're doing pretty well. Take care.

 

[Natsumi Lam]

I don't know if I am the oldest person on the forum or not, but in either case I have been a psych patient for many decades. My current shrink told me last week that in terms of medication there is nothing further to be done, I am already on 2 anti depressants and 2 anti anxiety pills daily. ( one is a Benzo )

Have you felt that even putting on your Crocs is too much work ? That just staying in your room and avoiding any potential confrontations, remarks, looks, etc from the public is just something you can no longer cope with, especially if you are big like I am. This is how my agoraphobia began a couple of years ago, much to the chagrin of my mental health providers, who are trying to move heaven and earth to get me to go out and even walk 3 blocks and come back.

Getting dressed is too hard, struggling with the bra, the leggings, and as I have no hair, I have to find a head covering, so I stopped getting dressed altogether. I went on Ebay and bought about $ 300 worth of Carol Hochman, Eileen West and Aria pretty knee length gowns I have OCD, so I shower a lot, most days about 5 times.

Have I reached the end of the road and am now mad ? Is the disinclination of yanking up a pair of leggings the proof that I've really and truly lost it ?

Any thoughts are welcome. I am going to copy and paste this for the depression and OCD teams. The more who read it, the greater chance it may resonate with someone.

Thanks and God bless.

I feel your pain! I am sorry and praying.

~Natsumi Lam~

 

[Natsumi Lam]

I don't think it's a sign you're going "mad", really, but it could just be fatigue and/or a minor loss of motor control. I've been on strong psych meds before which really knocked me out to a point where just getting out of bed was a chore in and of itself. You might want to talk to a doctor about it.

As the old adage goes, though, those who are insane don't know they're insane, so it sounds like you're doing pretty well. Take care.

I agree with Book of Matt.