Well, my heart is pounding at about a million miles an hour right now, almost out of my chest. Here's the thing, I kind of had a falling out with some friends about 4 years ago or so. Was told to let go of the grudge I was holding onto, but I didn't. I kept it, and then all of Satan's little lies kept creeping in, and I kind of not stopped believing, but started falling away. I truly feel like the Holy Spirit has been convicting me to repent and come back to follow God. Well I am, I have repented, and now I found this out. But this is freaking me out! I have repented, let go of the grudge, etc and I'm getting chills and goosebumps sometimes when I talk to God recently, but I'm freaking out really bad and I need answers. I fell away, and kind of fell back into my old ways. I have repented for everything, please help!