So I tried posting this over in the OCD section but no one is responding to me over there so I thought I'd come here. Does anyone else struggle with feeling like God demands you give things up? I've struggled with this most of my life, especially when it comes to my music (even Christian music,) feeling like I love it too much and God is demanding that I give it up. Not just put it aside for awhile, but totally and completely give it up and nothing else will do. If I refuse, God will not bless me and I will be stalled in my spiritual life. The difficulty is that it often seems to be accompanied by the same sorts of feelings/sensations as the experience of my OCD and they seem to feed into each other. So I wonder if it's really God asking something of me or if it's just the demands of my OCD. Anyone else experience anything like this?
Hi,
Yes totally. I have experienced all that you are talking about, including OCD light.
Yet, when I give up what God wants me to give up, I do get closer to Him eventually. Nothing that I have had God force me to give up, has not been good, for my relationship with God, even if it took me years to stop complaining about that, before I realized that yes, I was being blessed by God, in Him causing a desire of mine, to never be realized.
Yes.
Yes, they can seem similar, but know this in my life. God can use OCD light, to cause one to get closer to Him.
In my case, I cannot say that it was God or OCD light that God used, but I am close to God now. I am also old, and that makes a difference maybe, as God has had the time to encourage me to remove one thing after another, until He is all that is left, for me to desire. But, That book called The Bible, and That organization called a church, helped also for me to get closer to God.
But, yes, many times, I have asked myself. Is it OCD light, or is it God? I would say, letting go of the source and going for it, may in fact let you know the answer to that.
I live in a hermitage/ermitage now. It is an at home one. So, much including health has God removed from me and even people, that eventually I did not want anything but Him, and that resulted in me becoming very close to Him, but He chose, He directed, I did not. And, I did fight and not want to give up, many things, but still God won, and I won when He won. It just took me awhile to realize that.
I hope that helps. Oh, by the way. For me OCD, is merely me secretly punishing myself, for something, that I do. I forget why now. Oh. It is because I am my own parent, and have been since my youth. It is sort of like enforcing my discipline over myself, even though I am told it is genetic. The problem is, I am still my own parent, so I suppose OCD light will always be a part of me, but it is a part of me that your God and mine, uses well for His purposes.
LOVE,
...Mary Katie., .... .