It's 3am right now where I'm at. I'm up sick. Chest is tight, feel dizzy, went to the bathroom for 10hours straight. Took Epsom salts trying to flush out my system so that I wouldn't smell for an important interview tomorrow. Because as I've mentioned I suffer from some random disorder that started 3years ago that makes me give off bad odors. Most likely it's my liver. Now my liver area feels full and my whole body is messed up.
I pray so hard asking God to curee from this evil disorder. Why isnt he here for me? I wouldn't be torturing myself like this if he would cure me. I have work in the morning and an interview after that and I'm so tired.
I'm so miserable I'm this life I just want to escape. God why won't you help me?
there's a difference between God giving you something and you receiving what He's already given. for example, let's say i decide to give you $1million (remember, this is just an example
). so i deposit $1million in a bank account with your name on it, send you a letter telling you how to draw on it, and give you my phone number so that you can call me directly and ask for clarification of my written instructions. before the letter begins to go through the mail system on it's way to you, i have
already given you the $1million - it's already yours even though you don't yet know about my gift to you. so when you get the letter, if you don't read it, you would not know that you have $1million in a bank account with your name on it, and you could live in poverty with $1million in a bank account with your name on it. or if you read the letter and decide not to believe me, you could live in poverty with $1million in a bank account with your name on it. if you read the letter and try to draw on the $1million but get confused about the written instructions, and decide not to call me for clarification, you could live in poverty with $1million in a bank account with your name on it. if you read the letter, but instead of following my instructions, you ask me to bring you the money instead, you could live in poverty with $1million in a bank account with your name on it - because my name isn't on the account, only you can draw on it now - since i've
already given it to you. you might even wonder why i don't give you the money that's
already yours...
Mar 11:12-26 KJV
(12) And on the morrow, when they were come from Bethany, he was hungry:
(13) And seeing a fig tree afar off having leaves, he came, if haply he might find any thing thereon: and when he came to it, he found nothing but leaves; for the time of figs was not yet.
(14) And
Jesus answered and said unto it, No man eat fruit of thee hereafter for ever. And his disciples heard it.
(15) And they come to Jerusalem: and Jesus went into the temple, and began to cast out them that sold and bought in the temple, and overthrew the tables of the moneychangers, and the seats of them that sold doves;
(16) And would not suffer that any man should carry any vessel through the temple.
(17) And he taught, saying unto them,
Is it not written, My house shall be called of all nations the house of prayer? but ye have made it a den of thieves.
(18) And the scribes and chief priests heard it, and sought how they might destroy him: for they feared him, because all the people was astonished at his doctrine.
(19) And when even was come, he went out of the city.
(20) And in the morning, as they passed by, they saw the fig tree dried up from the roots.
(21) And Peter calling to remembrance saith unto him, Master, behold, the fig tree which thou cursedst is withered away.
(22) And Jesus answering saith unto them,
Have faith in God.
(23) For verily I say unto you, That whosoever shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; and shall not doubt in his heart, but shall believe that those things which he saith shall come to pass; he shall have whatsoever he saith.
(24) Therefore I say unto you, What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them.
(25) And when ye stand praying, forgive, if ye have ought against any: that your Father also which is in heaven may forgive you your trespasses.
(26) But if ye do not forgive, neither will your Father which is in heaven forgive your trespasses.
at the moment that Jesus cursed the fig tree, nothing changed from the outside view - yet the tree died at that instant when He cursed it. notice that Jesus did
not say this:
Have faith in <what your senses, your body, and the world tells you.> For verily I say unto you, That whosoever shall say unto unto <God, 'please God, move this mountain out of my life!', and keep pleading with God to move the mountain, and get others to plead to God with them, may eventually persuade God to move the mountain for them>. Therefore I say unto you, What things soever ye desire, <when ye see them>, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them.
text enclosed in "<>" added by me in place of the original text
THIS is what Jesus said:
Have faith in God.
(23) For verily I say unto you, That whosoever shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; and shall not doubt in his heart, but shall believe that those things which he saith shall come to pass; he shall have whatsoever he saith.
(24) Therefore I say unto you, What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them.
tradition has taught us to speak to God about our mountains, but Jesus told us to speak to our mountains about God
2Pe 1:1-4 KJV
(1) Simon Peter, a servant and an apostle of Jesus Christ, to them that have obtained like precious faith with us through the righteousness of God and our Saviour Jesus Christ:
(2) Grace and peace be multiplied unto you through the knowledge of God, and of Jesus our Lord,
(3) According as
his divine power hath given unto us all things that pertain unto life and godliness, through the knowledge of him that hath called us to glory and virtue:
(4)
Whereby are given unto us exceeding great and precious promises: that by these ye might be partakers of the divine nature, having escaped the corruption that is in the world through lust.
1Pe 2:24 KJV
(24) Who his own self bare our sins in his own body on the tree, that we, being dead to sins, should live unto righteousness: by whose stripes ye
were healed.
Isa 53:5 KJV
(5) But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we
are healed.
Mat 8:16-17 KJV
(16) When the even was come, they brought unto him many that were possessed with devils: and he cast out the spirits with his word, and
healed all that were sick:
(17) That it might be fulfilled which was spoken by Esaias the prophet, saying,
Himself took our infirmities, and bare our sicknesses.
