I've finally been able to find a free clinic that see me so I can see if I'll need to go back on medication. It's called MHMR. I'm pretty sure I will but this time I'm not going to let the doctor load me up with meds. I'm just feeling so desperate right now. I'm finding it hard to do much reading so I'm not really being able to read the Bible. I just can't concentrate enough to retain what I'm reading. I just don't know what to do to get past this. It's really frustrating. Typing this isn't too hard but it still takes longer than it should. Anyways, I just feel like I'm starting from square one again. Here I am almost sixty and I feel like I'm starting all over again. When will things get better? I just feel like life is getting to be too much.