- Jul 11, 2007
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One of the most important things I've learned over time is that only I am going to take care of myself at this time. I'm not that little child in a child's body any longer. So what am I doing to care for my adult self, and for my little or not so little ones inside?
How they are doing impacts me personally as the primary adult. If they are anxious, I feel it - scared, I feel it, etc. I may not understand that I'm feeling them, but I've learned in the past that when I unexpectedly feel a certain way, it is good to check on the inside.
For me, reinforcing safety - I am an adult now - the trauma isn't happening now... I an keep up safe. Then hugging a teddy bear or hugging myself to provide something that suggests safety. At one time, I put multiple locks on the door and barrier boards in the windows that slid open side ways so no one could physically get in from outside without excessive effort. I also told one of my best friends that if I called them and told them my abuser was outside to please come help. They said they would, and I should immediately hang up and call the police. So I had an external protector as well.
There are other things - coloring in my coloring books always helped to calm me down (I used adult coloring books - fine lines and great detail to the pictures). Then of course were the color books for the little ones, and art supplies, etc.
What do you do? How do you take care of you and those inside?
Even if you're just starting to take care of you - what little steps have you taken that are going to lead to more and more steps?
How they are doing impacts me personally as the primary adult. If they are anxious, I feel it - scared, I feel it, etc. I may not understand that I'm feeling them, but I've learned in the past that when I unexpectedly feel a certain way, it is good to check on the inside.
For me, reinforcing safety - I am an adult now - the trauma isn't happening now... I an keep up safe. Then hugging a teddy bear or hugging myself to provide something that suggests safety. At one time, I put multiple locks on the door and barrier boards in the windows that slid open side ways so no one could physically get in from outside without excessive effort. I also told one of my best friends that if I called them and told them my abuser was outside to please come help. They said they would, and I should immediately hang up and call the police. So I had an external protector as well.
There are other things - coloring in my coloring books always helped to calm me down (I used adult coloring books - fine lines and great detail to the pictures). Then of course were the color books for the little ones, and art supplies, etc.
What do you do? How do you take care of you and those inside?
Even if you're just starting to take care of you - what little steps have you taken that are going to lead to more and more steps?