Hi tdarcher7,
Your quite right about your way of thinking, it needs to change. It's nice to see you credit God with helping you to see that, that is good and right. The Bible says it is God who leads men to himself!
Here's the problem. You don't believe your a bad person. But in order to get into Heaven, the requirement is perfect obedience and when you compare yourself to that, you'll find out your like the rest of mankind, your not a good person and you are in fact a bad person. Here is what the Bible says:
Romans 3:23
for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God
God wants us to come to it that in and of ourselves, we can do nothing to get into Heaven because we are all sinners. We all lie, covet, dishonour our parents, lust, envy, swear, steel and so on. What your doing is comparing yourself to say criminals in this world, they are not the standard God goes by!
So if we are all sinners (bad people), how do we get into Heaven? We need a saviour, someone to save us from the penalty of our sins.
It's like we have cancer and the Lord Jesus is a doctor, we need him to save us and make us fit for heaven.
So what happened?
God sent his son into the world to take the punishment for your sins. Now God seeks men and women everywhere to realise that they owed a massive debt, the Lord Jesus came and paid the price that was demanded by God. Now we can seek forgiveness for our sins on account of what the Lord Jesus did.
So the next verse in that passage is this:
Romans 3:24
and all are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus.
We can be justified from our sin (accounted as righteous) and therefore gain entry into heaven.
If people humble themselves before God, approach him, simply with the little faith we have and genuinely seek after him, God will give you more faith! God wants to save, he loves his creation. He wants to save you! God doesn't expect you to do anything to earn your salvation, that's impossible! Remember, your a helpless sinner, God only requires an acknowledgement of your sin from you (confess to him in the private of your own room), and ask him to save you. If you genuinely believe in him and his son whom he sent, he will save you!
John 3:16
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
Thank you so much! I didn't think about it like that but it definitely brings me closer and to understand more everyday from the people here to guide me. I am so excited that I'm getting closer and closer. I love studying about it..i've been researching every day all day. It just draws me in and I am so grateful that He guided me here