I think I can very much agree with what All4Christ is saying.
I was searching for Truth, and found a lot of it in Orthodoxy. However, I'll be honest with you that there were things that made me uncomfortable, things I thought were probably wrong, things I didn't agree with.
But the view I glimpsed of God through Orthodox understanding was SO much more wonderful and complete than anything I had found elsewhere, and that's a tremendously big piece of the puzzle. I felt like I couldn't abandon that. And seeing the actual tools Orthodoxy can provide for spiritual growth was also important. My first Divine Luturgy (I had attended other services but hadn't been able to go on Sunday) was magnificent in atmosphere ... I really felt like God was present along with the Saints and choirs of angels. I can't put it into words, but I felt as though I didn't ever want to leave.
There were still those pesky "issues" I didn't agree with. But it was a sentiment like the one Rus expresses that got me thinking. Was I really trying to find a Church that fit me? What if I was wrong? And the Church certainly has lots of reason to claim she just might be right. So I decided to try to set aside biases, gave it a LOT of prayer (I think that helped most), and set about investigating more closely.
There are things that take time. God also helped me quite a bit to understand some other things. And to be honest, I'm not completely "there" yet as far as completely embracing everything in practice, though I accept the teachings now (I had to before I could in conscience join). I'm still praying about a particular issue, beginning just a few weeks ago, and God has done much to open my eyes on that, since I asked.
I'm not at ALL pressuring you to become Orthodox. I don't think anyone should unless they are sure.
. And you are most certainly welcome to hang around and ask questions or fellowship. We love our non-Orthodox members too.
I just wanted to offer my perspective, since I felt much as you did - that I couldn't be Protestant any longer, or become Catholic, but Orthodoxy didn't quite "fit" at first either.
May Christ our true God guide you and bless you on your journey, wherever it leads.