bad week. Needed a place to express it

I asked my doctor to try me on a new antidepressant this week. There were side effects to the Effexor that I didn't like. One was that I walked a very fine line between too low and a manic episode (I'm bipolar)

I asked him to try me on Wellbutrin. What a huge mistake. You never know how well medication is working until something goes wrong. I have been teary, dark, dismal. My head is like a dark cloud that everything gets absorbed into when I try and concentrate. I can't eat. I have no energy. I sleep all day in 1/2 hour naps, in between which I get a little housework done. I am having the worst anxiety attacks I've had in a long time. I make up scenarios out of the blue and freak out. My chest gets so tight it's like a drum. I find it hard to breath. My head goes absolutely crazy. When the one is finished. I get a few minutes rest and another one hits me.

I don't feel like being here. I don't feel like watching TV. I don't feel like doing anything except being held. It's crazy.

Fortunately I have a lot of lorazepam, ativan for the anxiety and I found that I had a bunch of my old meds, so I started taking them again.

Anyways, that's where I've been hiding. I would have put it in a forum I regularly hang at, but this struck me as being the proper place.

Thanks for reading.

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well, what's seem to be bothering you? what makes you have these panick attacks or other problems?

It's a chemical imbalance in my brain. If you can believe it, they just happen. Then it will swing the other way into a manic stage for a few months, where I have to take different meds to control it.

It's very frustrating.

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okay read my "buy this book" thread.

Much love DFG!
I have clinical depression myself and my mother was bi-polar so I can empathatize. Changing meds is rough I feel for you. Just try and hang in there and maybe go out for a walk...I knwo it sounds incredibliy stupid and it is so hard to make yourself do it, but just being in the fresh air and out of the house does help. I'll be thinking of you and praying for you
Huggles
Kitty

Have you tried St. John's Wort or Tryptophan? What kind of imbalance do you have?

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Hey Dr., you might want to try depakote instead if you haven't already as your Dr. about it.

I haven't tried any of those drugs, although I've heard of St. John's and depakote. I will ask about them and see what he says. Tanx.

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I just went back on the Effexor for the third day. I feel much better, although the side effects are back. Go figure.

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Heya DrFeelGood! I havent a clue about depression, I know people who say that they've suffered with it and I've seen the symptoms of it but I havent the foggiest about drugs n stuff like that. Stress though... thats a different story...

All the best! Praying for God's comfort as you're going through such a nasty time!

Love, hugs and prayers
Erica
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