hey everyone, well, i just want you all to pray for me if you get the chance. see, i'm feeling really low tonight. i have a lot of things going on in my head and i did something i haven't done in long time tonight. please just pray that if god is real, and he really does have a purpose for me, that he'd show me that, by saving my life tonight. 'cause i want to die. you may be wondering why i want to die. i can't stand life. i mean, it is so difficult for to function and get through each and every day. i can't sleep, i feel as though my life is going nowhere fast. i feel so alone and like i am such a burden for those around me. everything just seems so hopeless. i mean, it's like i am constantly telling myself, "it's ok. it'll all work out in the end. its gonna be ok" then everything just gets worse. i cant take it anymore. i'm serious. i just can't do this anymore. there is only one thing i know to do. i know no other way. if there is another way, please, by all means, let know. i'm desperate tonight, like never before.
If you're thinking of killing yourself, there is only one thing you can do right now: call 911 IMMEDIATELY. I understand you're that you're depressed, but despite this fact, you cannot, cannot test God by saying that He is real if he saves your life tonight should you try to take it. Your faith icon suggests that you're a Christian. Hence, it is your duty to not give up on God. Do you have a spiritual director you can talk to? This may be of help to you, along with the necessary therapy for your depression.
I'm not sure but I think God is urging me to tell you this. I think you should totally give your life to Him. Be a missionary and go and help all of those who are in need. Just drop everything and do it. Have faith and do it.
along with feeling alone, you probably also feel like you DESERVE to be alone. This is simply not true! You NEED help to get through this. You need to talk to your pastor - perhaps a psychologist. You need to talk to Christians at your church and have them pray for you IN PERSON. God set the church up exactly for this reason! You cannot allow the lies that you're telling yourself (that you're worthless or that nobody cares) to keep you from getting help!
You sound like you desprately want to have the pain in your head stop. Your blood hasn't helped in the past, and it's not a permenant solution (as you've seen yourself). The way out is through others (and God who placed them there). Don't let your fears (as strong as I KNOW they can be) to keep you from the wonderful fellowship between believers that can lift you through this.
Pray with people in person. But I will pray for you also. God will stay with you through EVERYTHING as he stayed with me when I was in the same place.
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“there may be times when we are powerless to prevent injustice,
but there should never be a time when we fail to protest.”
oh dear dear heart- please don't give up. i'm not going to lie- sure life can really really stink sometimes. and what stinks more is when you think it cant get any worse, something happens that just throws you down yet again. its exhausting. you feel like you cant stop it. you're too tired to cry anymore. sleeping is hard, but sometimes its all you want to do because that is sometimes the only time you can get away from this life that is dragging you down. eating- sometimes its all you can do to keep from eating everything in your fridge and othertimes just thinking of food makes you feel sick. life can be hard. and what stinks most on top of all this, is once you start feeling depressed your brain goes through these chemical reactions that continue your downward spiral further into depression. not fair is it?
i know. i have definately been there before. i still get in that spot from time to time. and you're going to have to keep going out on that limb and taking a leap of faith. just have confidence that one day it will get better. today might suck, but one day you will finally see that light at the end of the tunnel. it might not be tomorrow or this month, it might even take a few years, but you just have to have faith.
think of faith as meaning confident expectation. if you ever need someone to chat with EVER, i am here for you.
i am willing to help you find some help where you live. all you have to do is ask. but unfortunately, this is the internet. and one of its major downfalls is that it only goes so far. we have limitations as to how we can help you out. if it were up to any one of us we'd tear those barriers down, but unfortunately thats not reality. please know you are cherished and loved and that people do care about you.
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Dear paw4me: No matter how dark your past or how despondent you feel, your future is bright and full of hope and light with JESUS! Have faith--God is working behind the scenes.
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