Who Cares

Ok, so you've seen my attitude decline over the recent days...
is it stress? no
is it impatience? no

is it Me? YES!

I'm generally a nice person, if you saw me around, I like helping people with anything I'm capable with. I'm co-leading the mentoring program of my school, and I do heaps of "humanitarian" things.

So why all the problems...yes they're all my problems. It has nothing to do with anyone else but me.

I get () off, when people are greedy in their thoughts. I have intuition to know what their intention is, even before they say it...and that sometimes annoys people when I know what they're thinking, so they get offensive to try to back away.

Another thing I get () off about is when people do things that are "useless". They will do anything to argue how useful their action is, when I know, if you look at the bigger picture it results to nothing.

I like emotion, when people talk about feelings, because it's the truth, and sometimes I can't express that....but that is what I care about.

Do I care about the feelings of people who don't care about anyone else, and do what ever it takes to make it their own way.........Yes I do. Their feelings is what I can feel to help them find another way to a solution.

But do I care about what the person does or think, just to prove a point...no.

There are manythings in this life I find USELESS....and I have to vent my anger out now, just to show, that i want to understand people, so long as they show their true self.

But i'm sick of people, who use up taxpayers money or resources that does things that society doesn't really need...

Like an abstract art gallery...why have so many of them?
Economists...they sit all day, looking at money...at the end of the day, they get paid, but where from?....Hardworking people......like the local baker, or a farmer or a waiter and even an engineer.................they don't allocate resources for better efficiency, they allocate it to best suits themselves....


What about materialism? It still strikes Christians, why waste money on something that is man made....they don't know, but it makes them feel better to belong. They why don't they read the Bible and so they belong to God rather than a group of friends.
I saw a person drive a lexus convertable to church...if you had the money, that means you had the time to make it, why didn't they spend more time with God rather than making money.....The argument for that has always been, it's not my money so why should I have a say in it, but the real argument is.....money is their master and God is their belief the can have the best of the two worlds.

There are so many problems we have in our society. Each day I walk, I wonder why I'm ignoring them, why everyone is ignoring problems....
Why is it that I like orchids so much, why do I like growing it in my room?...I'm ignoring the problem that the rain forest is being destroyed, and instead of stopping it, i'm preserving the genes. Again I'm ignoring the problem...

In what ever I do, that seems normal, I'm ignoring the real problem....

I can't stand this, and I can't stand it also when everyone else is doing it the same....

Rightnow I'm confused.....


I'm going through my Quad-Life Crisis, and been going through it for over 2 months now...and it still not getting any better.......

Well! I never!
Do you feel better now Jim? Sure you're not going through a mid life crisis?
Hey Mate! Know what? You are thinking the same as every other Aussie!
You've grown up and are seeing the world as it is. And, you've just written a book about it!
Nobody cares about people in this world! You are your own best friend!
You can't change the world Jim. As you've written in is how it is. I've came home from a friend who does the same as I, we save the lives of unwanted and half dead animals. But hey! We can't save the rainforest. But, we can try to preserve what good there is in life as a light to the world of good people. And, show them our example.
A man driving a lexus convertible to church? What else do you expect Jim? That's what many people are like!
You expect too much Jim. Many who say and think they are christian are not what they say and think. We expect mankind to think like us...no,no...man will go on his self destructive ways and fulfill the prophecy that "many who think they shall be first, shall be last"
Why do you reckon I love my garden? Because I can't change the world, but, I can always be there for someone who needs me...

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No way, I don't feel good... and I think thats they way it'll be. I know that everytime I feel good, either something bad happens or I have a feeling that something isn't right.

I'm not in heaven now, so I still need to be aware of things happening around me...which makes me crazy......

I have another problem now, I think I need to see a counciller for this. A Christian counciller.....it's very annoying, it would be good if I had support, but it's too private.

It's probably whats causing all my inner problems...and whats making me unstable

Oh Jim...if there's anyway I can help you, you know what to do mate.

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I know I made a mess of myself, being some drama queen....

But I wanted to let people know that, I as a Christian is nice and patient, however for issues that in my opinion cause problems, I tend to lose control....
Just to let people know I'm not a monster hiding in a human skin...I'm consistant, but I have other problems...

You are not on your own Jim! People in Australia are aware of many things, and are outraged by more than you'd dream about. But, living in the city, you see more than we in the country, and far more than we'd ever want to see.
Hypocrisy in the churches is rampant worldwide.
I am very kind, and more than patient. But, often this has been to my own downfall.
But, I am old enough now to know that while I live on this earth...I also learn...

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I've always been trying to make my friends think, I've gone through suicide, and I'm over it now...but reality is....I'm not, and anyone who has experienced suicide is never the same again. The only difference I have now is that I won't jump off, but I have a backup exit to fall back on....

I've been like this, and the only good thing I can't still smile upon, is that suicide has bought me much much closer to God. Other than that, if I don't have a needle pinching my skin, then I won't feel right, until I get a needle myself and do it manually....

I don't think there is a person on earth who hasn't gone through suicidal thoughts Jim. And, many have attempted. But, who cares? GOD CARES. And no matter what you do, or what you think in this life, other's have thought, or done the same or similar. But it all falls back to the Father. Your life is in His Hands. It doesn't belong to you. Your father and Mum may have been the reason you live...but, once you become a Christian like yourself, God is the reason you live. And, your eyes are widened to the wickedness on the earth and it makes you shudder.
Then you see a fault in your self...and you shudder. Your senses are sharpened. And you snap to attention by the guiding of the Holy Spirit. And, He will never guide you into harm. Especially to self. But, you know that.
Every child of God is special. They go on in a humble manner. Those who are NOT children of God, but who profess to be, go on in a proud manner.
The true children of God are always the ones who are 'picked on' by those who profess to be "goodies". That's why Jesus told us to rejoice! They even picked on the prophets.
Keep on the path close to Father as you now do. Everything in life happens for a reason. Everything.

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Wow, I understand some of where you are coming from. I tend to be a person who sometimes easily get's depressed. You definitely need someone you can talk this out with, even if it is just to talk and you can't have advice. Sometimes it is good to just talk it out with someone. Hang in there. I have had suicidal thoughts in the past, even after I had my baby, but I think that was PND, but it was awful.

There you go Jim.

The world is as you see it. Maybe, it's not as you like, in fact, it's never as you like.

But before you can fix anything in the world, you have to fix yourself. Don't like evil? Nobody does. Mate, there will always be evil while you're here on earth. If you want a perfect world, you gotta 1. die first and go to heaven, or 2. go back in time and stop adam and eve sinning.

There will always be hypocrites. Ones who do it unintentionally, ones who do it unknowingly and the ones who do it purposefully.

Who cares? WE ALL DO! EVERYONE!

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