Originally Posted by dhatura
I was an atheist but God has blessed me. But God has forsaken me now. I'm in the mid-30s, with no boyfriend, no job and feeling bad about myself. It's all because I had schizophrenia years ago. What do I do about that?
Hebrews 13:5 Keep your life free from love of money, and be content with what you have, for he has said, "I will never leave you nor forsake you."
God wouldn't leave you because of schizophrenia, or for any reason.
God hasn't left you, although your circumstances may make it seem like He has. Yet, He is always there, with you and living in you. If you seek Him out you will find Him. Don't despair because your plans aren't working out:
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.
God has a plan for you and that is what you need to get on the same page with. Look at what Jesus said:
John 15:5 I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing
Whatever you're trying to do with without God isn't going to work out. I suspect God is waiting on you to get hungry enough to chase after Him and really seek Him with all of your heart. Do you want God more than money, or a boyfriend? If so then you have a reason to rejoice, because God is with you.
Don't feel bad about yourself because God loves you and He has redeemed you. Rejoice because your name is written in Heaven. Do you go to a church and do you have fellowship with other Christians? Do you read your bible and pray every day?