For months now I been prayin for an earthly father figure. I been prayin for one as well I never had a good one. I know GOD is my Heavenly Father and that is wonderful. But I need to be able to see a dad's smile or see him shrug ya know just a dad that I can actually physically see in front of me. Can't see GOD like that. Can't hear Him either. I mean like to have a dad where if I say hi he says hi and asks how I am. I say hi to GOD and there is just silence. I don't mean like where it feels as if prayers are just reachin the ceiling. I know GOD hears me. I know GOD talks to me through His Word and through people. But I can't actually have a conversation with Him like I can a human being. That just doesn't happen. So I wanted a dad that could do that to. This is gonna sound silly but inside of me is a little girl that just keeps begging for attention and for love that she can actually physically see in front of her. There's a girl inside me who says "please put me in dresses. Please put bows in my hair. Please gimme candy. Please hold my hand. Please tell me stories. Please tuck me in and scare away the monsters under the bed and in the closet even though there not real. Please hold and hug me all the time. Please wipe away my tears. Please just be there for me. Please buy me presents." Well I believe GOD has shut the door permanently on the earthly father figure thing. All those needs I got just ain't gonna get fulfilled. It's just not gonna happen and I need to accept it. So please pray that GOD help me accept this and remove my needs. I don't want em anymore. I don't wanna feel needy at all anymore. This is why I used to not show emotion and not let anything get to me and get drunk. So that I wouldn't feel this constant need anymore. I know drunkeness won't solve it but at least I wouldn't feel anything for a little while. So please pray that GOD take these feelings away cause I just can't deal with em without someone to fulfill em I just can't do it. Boy this is an irony. I was brought up to not feel anything and not show any emotion at all ever. I just wish it was ok for me to feel and need these things and have an earthly father there to fulfill em. But that won't happen ever and I need to accept that. It's just the way it is. Please pray for me about all this....
__________________ "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord. Thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope." (Jeremiah 29:11)
"Our danger is to water down God’s word to suit ourselves.
God never fits His word to suit me; He fits me to suit His word." Not Knowing Whither, 901 R
To view links or images in signatures your post count must be 10 or greater. You currently have 0 posts.
I NEED the believers of the world to please JOIN heads with me on my great need right now. Please pray with me that I am relieved of financial stress. Thanks you...in TRUST I pray.
I NEED the believers of the world to please JOIN heads with me on my great need right now. Please pray with me that I am relieved of financial stress. Thanks you...in TRUST I pray.
Prayers are being said.
__________________
To view links or images in signatures your post count must be 10 or greater. You currently have 0 posts.
To view links or images in signatures your post count must be 10 or greater. You currently have 0 posts.
To view links or images in signatures your post count must be 10 or greater. You currently have 0 posts.
To view links or images in signatures your post count must be 10 or greater. You currently have 0 posts.
Linear Mode
