Spinning My Wheels Big Time.....

i've had the WEIRDEST last 2 years of my whole life!!!

Strange it's much needed in some regard as I've learned a ton threw the experience. But basically I've lost my businesses, matured considerablly, am no longer a workaholic, have some legal problems, no longer seriously seeing my long term GF, have moved back into my parents basement, starting to sport a bit of a beer belly, was given a huge pile of debt by the auditors for no reason at all, etc etc etc....

Like my life is in chaos!!! It's all a good learning experience too. but it leave a guy, synical, negative, beat down, broken, untrusting, unmotivated, seceptical, etc etc etc...

Like I don't want to do anything anymore. I literally don't want to do anything. If I get a job the g--v will go after my pay check. If I start a business not only will they do that but they also likely will be watching any biz I try and start (I can't get into details).

I can't travel right now either. My ex who I once cared about only wants to be friends. I understand we had our time, and stuff, but it's tricky dating at 37. I find it takes an awful lot for me to love someone. And even if I did meet a great girl I almost don't want to drag her into my screwed up life.

I just don't know what to do anymore. Maybe this is a bit of a mid life crisis. I mean it could be worse. I still have friends, family, my health, a roof over my head and several other things. And I've learned a lot too.

But I mean I just feel totally stuck. Like I honestly am not sure what I should be doing anymore now??? Like I'm so fed up with everything. Like if everythings constantly going bad then it's like why try anymore. I might as well just lay in bed all day and do nothing.

ANYWAY...does anyone have any advice or ideas for me? I'm all ears???

Use this time to grow closer to God. Find a church that is not fluff and really teaches God's Word. Grow in Christian fellowship.

Don't give up. Best of luck to you.

Is anyone out there?/?

Looks like you are getting into a depression, friend. And likely so. Life has not turned out how you had imagined. Whether it be your poor choices that got you into this situation or not you are at rock bottom and there is only one way to look (up). Put your trust in God that He can and will do miraculous things in your life if you truly begin seeking God. Read His word daily and follow His commandments. The consequences of your chaos may last a while but God can transform your life. I have no other advice for you but for you to go to God CONSISTENTLY. Only He can do great things and the more you see Him do the more amazed you will be at His greatness and love for you. Hope this helps!!

I'm sorry you are going through a rough time. The last few years have been the hardest for me. I just moved back in with my parents as well. Don't give up and remember that you do have lots of things going for you!

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I've had it pretty rough my last two years also. I've gone from broken and barely being able to hold my head up...to looking forward to what God has for me in each new day. I can honestly say that in my brokenness, it caused me to depend on God with every fiber of my being. I started to be able to thank Him for the trials and truly seek Him so that He would show me what I needed to learn through them all. He showed me alot about myself and the things that I needed to work on. My voice, motivation, drive, happiness, optimism was stripped from me for so long. I was literally hopeless and without purpose.

The one big lesson I learned through it all was that God can only do what is perfect. He never makes any mistakes. And that He has my best interest at hand. No matter what my small brain thinks, He knows what is absolutely best for me.

So be encouraged by the fact that you are "fearfully and wonderfully made." and that
The fining pot is for silver, and the furnace for gold: but the LORD trieth the hearts. Proverbs 17:3 He loves you so much that He is taking personal interest in your life to mold you according to what's best for your life at this time.

Find a few verses that speak to your soul. Read them every day and throughout the day. Those 1, 2, or 3 verses have the power to transform your thinking. Our thoughts are often our demise. Change your thoughts and change your life.

IT WILL GET BETTER JUST KEEP HOLDING HIS HAND TIGHTLY!