i've had the WEIRDEST last 2 years of my whole life!!!
Strange it's much needed in some regard as I've learned a ton threw the experience. But basically I've lost my businesses, matured considerablly, am no longer a workaholic, have some legal problems, no longer seriously seeing my long term GF, have moved back into my parents basement, starting to sport a bit of a beer belly, was given a huge pile of debt by the auditors for no reason at all, etc etc etc....
Like my life is in chaos!!! It's all a good learning experience too. but it leave a guy, synical, negative, beat down, broken, untrusting, unmotivated, seceptical, etc etc etc...
Like I don't want to do anything anymore. I literally don't want to do anything. If I get a job the g--v will go after my pay check. If I start a business not only will they do that but they also likely will be watching any biz I try and start (I can't get into details).
I can't travel right now either. My ex who I once cared about only wants to be friends. I understand we had our time, and stuff, but it's tricky dating at 37. I find it takes an awful lot for me to love someone. And even if I did meet a great girl I almost don't want to drag her into my screwed up life.
I just don't know what to do anymore. Maybe this is a bit of a mid life crisis. I mean it could be worse. I still have friends, family, my health, a roof over my head and several other things. And I've learned a lot too.
But I mean I just feel totally stuck. Like I honestly am not sure what I should be doing anymore now??? Like I'm so fed up with everything. Like if everythings constantly going bad then it's like why try anymore. I might as well just lay in bed all day and do nothing.
ANYWAY...does anyone have any advice or ideas for me? I'm all ears???