I have been having a lot of trouble the last several days. I have become very disturbed with the secularism that is occuring in America. It seems like everywhere I go there are people everywhere who are bashing people of faith in the name of science.
Well, I did something that damaged my faith, and have fell in a deep hole. I started to do a little research to fulfill my curiosity about these different theories science has to offer. Then I listened to serveral atheists perspective on this whole ordeal on science and naturally became very upset.
I always have had faith in God, but after reading/listening to all this non-sense put all this doubt in me, and I feel pretty bad/empty on the inside. I have been suffering with anxiety/depression for the last two years and feel as if it wasn't for my faith I would have no gotten this far in my recovery. Over the last several days I have felt like I am about to go into another nervous breakdown because it has changed my whole perspective on life.
I'm sorry for posting this because it makes me look like my faith was never there to begin with. I know they're all types of deceptions on this Earth, but I just have been feeling lost and hopeless to think I am here by chance, and have no real purpose. To know I won't see my loved ones after my journey is over on this Earth. To know one day I will pass and never knew I existed.
Has anyone had this dilemma? If so does anyone have advice to offer? I really need something to comfort me at this time since I feel so vunerable and alone.
We are not robots. God understands when we sometimes question our faith. The important thing is that you realize how that is affecting your anxiety. I have been going through the same thing. The more I hold one to what I know is true, the more I am able to deal with my anxiety. Pray that God will restore both our faiths and confidence He will not give us anything we can't handle with His help!
It's normal to question your faith. I have been going through the same thing. For me it's music. There are some songs I simply cannot listen to anymore because of how they affect my anxiety.
Hang in there, read your Bible, and Pray. And I will pray for you