Please pray for me, I need help.

I have been going thru a hard time for the last 3.5 years.

One tragedy after another. After another, after another. High stress, depression, anxiety attacks, and I'm just tired. Tired of fighting to live, and work through all the bad things. I'm just tired.

One of the major things that happened was my husband had an affair and left me for that woman. It has put my children and I in non-ideal situations. Especially financially.

I'm so tired of holding resentment. Of waiting for justice. For some reason I'm hell bent on her being miserable because she made my children and I miserable. I want both of them (husband and her) to "pay" for what they did. And all I see is them happy (because I was left with the short end of the stick) and kid free dating and taking my kids on vacations while I go to the food pantry for food.

I have to let go of this, or I will always be miserable. I know you cannot compare your life to someone else's, but I think about all this all day. Nothing brings me comfort and joy. I don't know what to do anymore.

Everytime I went thru something I was "like Ok I can do this" and then something else would happen just to stick the knife even farther into my heart.

I am lost.

Praying you can forgive and let go and move on.

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Prayer warrior

Praying!

Dearest sis, hugs to you..can understand. Sincerely praying you are enabled to get thru. God is right where you are.

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JESUS IS ALIVE!

I hear you and empathize with you. My husband and father of our five children left while I was pregnant with our fifth child. I felt all of the same emotions that you did in the beginning. It didn't last long because I came to understand and accept that my responsibilities are to my children and to provide for them and love them. I had to get court ordered child support which took a long time and not nearly enough to live on. We survived and I am so grateful to God that He was with me every step of the way. It was the hardest thing that I ever lived through and there were many tears of exhaustion and worries shed. My children were the victims here, and so I bucked up and did everything that I could do so they would have a roof over their heads and stability and love. They are all grown now and I have been blessed with grandchildren. So, my dear friend in Christ, let go of the anger and turn your heart towards your children. I didn't say it was easy, but it sure is worth it and God will bless you. I will pray that you let go of the anger and that God bless you and your children. You can do it !

Hi Holiday, I'm praying for you, and really do hope things get better, blessings!

Praying for you, Holiday. I too find it hard to let go of resentment, for similar reasons. Peace!

Praying for your strength, hope, peace, and healing ~ may God bless you in His Merciful Love

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I am praying with you my friend. My wife did not cheat but left me and a big hole behind and I understand the finance part sense I no longer have her income and now am going to pay child support. I wanted her to fail in her new life and her BMW she will be getting and all the parties but it was the pain talking, when I get on my face to pray, I ask God to bless her abundantly. I still love her with all my heart and wish she would come home but I am starting to accept it now. For me, praying the best for her everyday seems to help with my relationship with Christ and gives me strength. I have not been able to get past the pain of it yet, some days the Lord blesses me with a semi-painless day and others I have the darkest thoughts I could imagine but I am leaning on Him hard and trusting He will take care of me...even though I complain to Him too =).

Hang in there sister, you are a strong woman, a good mother and a child of the most High God and He WILL take care of you!!!!

I am leaning on this devotional today, I hope it blesses you too:

Matthew 11:28-30, NIV: "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

So, what is it about us? Are we control freaks, or what? Why is it we insist on shouldering loads we were not meant to bear? We step back, take a good look at the world and say, "I know just what to do." But the world is heavier than it looks, and we are not equipped to go it alone. "Come to me," Jesus tells us. Is it because He thinks we are weak? No, it is because He knows better than us exactly what we are. But our eyes are often bigger than our abilities. And so, we determine to take on more than we can handle. Is that sin? No matter how noble our intentions, taking on too much (like not doing enough) is outside of God's will. Saving the world is not our burden--it is God's. Ours is to do His will with the little fragment of the world He entrusts to us--and that through His strength--not our own.

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The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. -Psalm 34:18

Dear sister,

I recommend making intimate prayer, and lots of it, your strength. Tell God how you feel, but leave room for Him to minister to you. Every time a thought of unforgiveness or bitterness comes up in prayer, take authority over it in the name of Jesus. When you slip, don’t fret, acknowledge it and rejoice that you are forgiven and God is on your side, empowering you to prevail. It will become easier and easier, and in time you will be free.

And Jesus answered them, “Have faith in God.
Truly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, ‘Be taken up and thrown into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that what he says will come to pass, it will be done for him.
Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.
And whenever you stand praying, forgive, if you have anything against anyone, so that your Father also who is in heaven may forgive you your trespasses.” -Mk 11.22-25