I've always been someone who has held in their tears. I didn't like crying. But as I've been building up my relationship with God, I've taught myself that crying isn't all that bad and that I shouldn't try so hard to hold it in. But for some reason, I've found I really have a hard time crying . . .
Sometimes, when listening to Christian music or hearing a great preacher, I feel a huge need to cry. I feel like a balloon that's about to pop any second but for some reason . . . just can't. My face gets red and it's very frustrating because I feel I need to cry! For sins! For Jesus! But I can't!! Something commonplace for me in Church as well is Dancing in the Spirit. Sometimes I can't even focus on dancing because I just want one tear to come out but nothing comes! Why is it that I can feel such pain, such sadness, such remorse for my sins, yet I can't shed a single tear for them??
I've got the opposite problem - went to The Holy Land in Orlando and when they reenacted the crucifixion I cried, what I could watch of The Passion of Christ cried, cry in church, etc. FuegoPentecostes have you seen The Passion? Maybe you have an idea on how I can stop? I'm aggravated because I cry.
I am in no way a emotional person. I'm a guy, not to say guys can't be emotional, but for the most part they don't cry as much. Lately, however during worship/prayer I start crying, not like ball my eyes out crying but I cry, especially when someone starts interpreting tongues or when someone starts prophesying. I believe God uses our emotions as a way to further experience Him in a new way, and I love it when He does.
It seems like you want to cry to show God how much He means to you. But He already knows that!
Crying is a physical process where the toxins in the body build up -- like adrenaline -- and the body releases the toxins through shed water. Anxiety can lead to an toxic overload... sadness, love... but crying is not really evidence of what your heart feels. It's more about stored up anxiety needing to be released.
People crying with repentance and emotional healing are still authentic, but crying can't really be controlled or predicted that way.
I have searched from stem to stern throughout my body and cannot find a laugh or cry button. Over the years, both have dried up. I long for a good, long, cheek hurting laugh like when I was a boy, but it's not to be, I suppose. Many hardships and trauma have taken place in my life. They took the tears from me. In fact, I did not cry at either of my parent's funerals.