Could you all please pray for me as I have been going through a bad period of depression. I feel like crying and it feels like I have been forsaken by God and that he has withdrawn his Holy Spirit from me. I wake up at night and feel as if I'm dammed. All of this is been brought on because I backslide for years in sin and now I'm cursed. I wish I never did backslide, I have made so many stupid mistakes! I had a close and loving relationship with God, but now I have ruined everything because I pursued my lust. I could of done great things, but now I'm nothing. I am devoid of feelings and am like a zombie.
Are any of you like this?
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Some times i feel that am cursed because i fallowed Satan for a time ( wicca and islam )
and because of things in my past that am not proud of
but God forgives those who seek him who ask for his love
i pray that things get better for you
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Could you all please pray for me as I have been going through a bad period of depression. I feel like crying and it feels like I have been forsaken by God and that he has withdrawn his Holy Spirit from me. I wake up at night and feel as if I'm dammed. All of this is been brought on because I backslide for years in sin and now I'm cursed. I wish I never did backslide, I have made so many stupid mistakes! I had a close and loving relationship with God, but now I have ruined everything because I pursued my lust. I could of done great things, but now I'm nothing. I am devoid of feelings and am like a zombie.
Are any of you like this?
I was like that. I have been there and done that. I understand and I offer you a hug. I am not going to preach at you as I find it turns me off when that happened to me. Here is my story, I have tried three time to kill myself in my lifetime and they were all with handguns. Two times I stopped myself and one time I pulled the trigger and the gun did not fire. I have been born again for 15 years and I did the backslide thing and walked away from God and the church. I understand your pain. I am now getting back with God, reading my Bibkle, and praying daily. I want to try church again but have not done it yet. I have been in the psych hospital twice both of which I chose to go to get help. I am currently on Celexa and Risperdol medications and see a therapist once a week.
It takes time to get better. I know God does heal and can heal, however "instant healing" like you see on TV did not happen for me....and that is ok. I am learning from it and it is bringing me back to God. My advice is to take things one day at a time, if that is too hard then moment by moment. It will get better, even though it does not seem that way right now. ((hugs)) I wish I could make all your troubles go away, but that is God's job. I can simply say that I "get it" and that you are not alone and it will get better. The medications and therapy help very much.
Don't feel like anything you've done in the past can keep you from God. Try talking with Him when you feel this way. I honestly used to pray until I started crying, and that would make me feel better. Just know that the guilt you feel is from the devil. Lust and sexual immorality has unfortunately been a major issue with me as well, even recently, so don't think that you're alone. The blood of Jesus overcomes all things. I'm sorry that you're hurting, brother. I'm praying for you.
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When you confess your sin and repent of it, God is faithful to forgive it. And it sounds like you have done that. It is not He who condemns you and you are HIs son so He has not cursed you. Read the parable of the prodigal son again in Luke chapter 11. You are accepted back and the heavens are throwing a party in your honor.
Yes, it is tougher here on earth, but God's hand is on you here, healing you. His plan for your life is still in tact. Please watch this short video. It will help and encourage you, and help you remember God's heart foryou. Just click this link: Videos | Gateway Church
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Thank you all for your kind, encouraging words and your prayers. I'm feeling a little better today. It is so uplifting what you people have written and it does fill me with hope.
Much love to you all and God bless.
Victor.
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“There is no room in a busy mind for thinking… disconnect, sit, be quiet, relax and think.”
I have those feelings alot and it always helps when i get one of these
HUGS!!!
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Here is my story, I have tried three time to kill myself in my lifetime and they were all with handguns. Two times I stopped myself and one time I pulled the trigger and the gun did not fire. I have been born again for 15 years and I did the backslide thing and walked away from God and the church. I understand your pain. I am now getting back with God, reading my Bibkle, and praying daily. I want to try church again but have not done it yet. I have been in the psych hospital twice both of which I chose to go to get help. I am currently on Celexa and Risperdol medications and see a therapist once a week. 
HUGS!!!
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