Neesa ~ Bless your heart - I'm praying - and will continue to pray. This will get better! Peace will come.
I understand completley how your feeling right now. I've had those sleepless nights where I could do nothing except feel my heart and mind race - certain that i was never going to see morning.
I've been so terrified I wanted to run out of the house screaming Thankfully - I never did - but it was close on more than one occassion.
As I'm sitting here writing - i'm remembering the hundreds of nights that I felt just like you. I'm trying to think of the things that would have given me comfort...
I suppose - what I needed to hear more than anything - was that I wasn't alone. That someone - somewhere was going through exactly what I was going through - and that it was going to be alright. I needed to know that someone - somewhere was helping to hold me up... That people had walked the same path I was walking - and came through on the other side.
That's what I needed to hear. Neesa - my wife and I are praying for you - and we will continue to do so. You're not alone - I promise!
I'm pretty sure that there isn't a symptom of anxiety that I haven't experienced to it's fullness... Let's see - I've ben absolutely certain i was having a heart attack hundreds of times... I went to the ER at least ten of those times - in fact I was so convincing - the nurses thought i was having one too I've been been convinced that I was going insane - that at some point I would have to be institutionalized. (I wasn't)
I've had lung cancer, brain cancer, I haven't been able to swallow or control bodily functions, I couldn't eat, couldn't sleep, tingling fingers, tingling legs... I could go on for pages - but what I'm trying to say - is that those feelings - will pass in time.
None of those horrible things that I was absolutely convinced were happening or about to happen ever did. NONE OF THEM!
Be assured - God never leaves us during these times - he's still there - still watching, protecting and loving you. He's promised that He will never give you more than you can handle, and that no matter how difficult things seem - He's still right there.
Neesa, I wish there was more I could do for you... but know that I'm here - and I understand!
When these feelings come up try to remember last time you felt this way and how nothing happened, that's what I usually do anyways. Picture it in your mind and the fact you woke up the next day just fine.
Usually it works, but then sometimes the anxiety feelings make you feel terrible. I know, I live it.
__________________ In you, O LORD, I have taken refuge;
let me never be put to shame.
Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
Nessa so sorry to hear you are suffering with the fear problems again. Im finding that the panic/anxiety disorder takes time to recover from. Just taking one day at a time. Try to continue to remind yourself of Gods promises to you, He always cares for you. I know that reminding myself of how much God loves me helps to calm my panic/anxiety. I have just prayed for you.