Tired of it all

I've been struggling for a long time with my mental health, in and out of hospital, been sectioned more times than i can remember, a lits of dignosis thats way too long. and im tired. im emotionally, mentally and physically drained. I dont know how much longer i can keep going with it. Im currently in a crisis unit waiting to be moved to an ED unit(well supposedly as long as they feel they can handle me how ive been rcently.) Ive had meeting after meeting about the appropriate care that i need and which area should be dealt with first, which one puts me more and rist, and the stupid thing is nones actually asking me, theyre talking about me in front of me and talking at me! i feel so small and lost. I'm twenty one, i feel about ninety, i see all my mates going out to partied, finishing uni having a good time and i hate it. i hate everything about my life right now, i want to be a 'normal' twenty one year old. is that to much to ask. I want a day where everythings ok, where im not treading on eggshells around myself, where i actually have silence in my head, where all im worrying about is something simple!!!!!!!!!!!

sorry im having a little whoa me rant and wasnt sure where else to put it!!!!! I just want to be free from all this stuff going on, i dont wanna be me with mental health. :'( sorry

I wish I could say something that would make you feel better, sweetie. It's so very hard sometimes to understand why, but try to hold on to the fact that God is still in control, even when things are at their worst.
Praying for you very much.

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Thankyou, just listening and aknowledging helps, not many people seem to be doing that right now, and they should be eurgh i wont go of on one again. i wish i could undersatn it right now but nothings making much sense in my head other that im struggling :'( I just keep getting angry at him, and i kno its God and not his fault but i dont know who else/what else to scream at it doesnt get listened to anyway!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi Katey,
It's tough to be offer anything besides encouragement when I don't know your situation or the things you are struggling with. I think that managing things is two-fold. One is that often times we need help, sometimes this means through medicine. However, on the other hand that is not a complete fix and we are responsible for the other half of trying and making it through.

What I know is that God is always with us and I believe He gives us strength to move forward if we are looking to Him and seeking His will.

Hugs.

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To man belong the plans of the heart, but from the LORD comes the reply of the tongue. All a man's ways seem innocent to him, but motives are weighed by the LORD. Commit to the LORD whatever you do, and your plans will succeed.The LORD works out everything for his own ends—even the wicked for a day of disaster. Prov 16

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Katey,

Life really hurts so bad some times.We just want all the pain to stop so bad.
We really really have to cry out to Jesus with all our heart and hold tight to Him.
He is our Good SHepeherd and He protects us and leads us to still waters and restores our soul and comforts us.Times are really painful and hard in life now days.
All we can do is hold onto Jesus and come to Him for rest and healing.I am sorry you are hurting so much.
One day Jesus will wipe all tears from our eyes.

and the stupid thing is nones actually asking me, theyre talking about me in front of me and talking at me! i feel so small and lost.

we are weak, Jesus says we can do nothing of ourselves.
But Jesus gives us His strength.
It would be kinder if they involved you in the discussions and ask you what you think about things.

See all what Jesus does for us.
He loves us so very very deeply.


Luke 4:18
The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he hath anointed me to preach the gospel to the poor; he hath sent me to heal the brokenhearted, to preach deliverance to the captives, and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty them that are bruised,

Mathew 11

28Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

29Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. 30For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light

Jesus went through so very much for us , we cannot even comprehend what Jesus went through for us, because He loves us so.
Isaiah 53


1Who hath believed our report? and to whom is the arm of the LORD revealed?
2For he shall grow up before him as a tender plant, and as a root out of a dry ground: he hath no form nor comeliness; and when we shall see him, there is no beauty that we should desire him.
3He is despised and rejected of men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief: and we hid as it were our faces from him; he was despised, and we esteemed him not.
4Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted.
5But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.
6All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned every one to his own way; and the LORD hath laid on him the iniquity of us all.
7He was oppressed, and he was afflicted, yet he opened not his mouth: he is brought as a lamb to the slaughter, and as a sheep before her shearers is dumb, so he openeth not his mouth.
8He was taken from prison and from judgment: and who shall declare his generation? for he was cut off out of the land of the living: for the transgression of my people was he stricken.
9And he made his grave with the wicked, and with the rich in his death; because he had done no violence, neither was any deceit in his mouth.
10Yet it pleased the LORD to bruise him; he hath put him to grief: when thou shalt make his soul an offering for sin, he shall see his seed, he shall prolong his days, and the pleasure of the LORD shall prosper in his hand.
11He shall see of the travail of his soul, and shall be satisfied: by his knowledge shall my righteous servant justify many; for he shall bear their iniquities. 12Therefore will I divide him a portion with the great, and he shall divide the spoil with the strong; because he hath poured out his soul unto death: and he was numbered with the transgressors; and he bare the sin of many, and made intercession for the transgressors

Things will get better they will not always be so hard.
I hope you get better soon


blessings
annrobert

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Luke 18
1And he spake a parable unto them to this end, that men ought always to pray, and not to faint

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John 15
5I am the vine, ye are the branches: He that abideth in me, and I in him, the same bringeth forth much fruit: for without me ye can do nothing.
7If ye abide in me, and my words abide in you, ye shall ask what ye will, and it shall be done unto you.

I know you're not around at the moment, sweetie, but just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you.

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I know it's very hard to accept a mental health problem. I have struggled with accepting it but once I did and realized I was just as good as anyone else I felt better. I stay close to Jesus and that is the ultimate help for me. People that talk in front of you about you don't know what they are doing. They would not like it if it was done to them. Forgive them for they know not what they do. I am praying for you.

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THankyou for all the replies. it means a lot. sorry not replied earlier though not been able to get on internet.