New relationship with Christ

childofGod31 · #1 4th November 2009, 12:02 AM

I see people on this forum who have found their new love relationship with Christ. And it's nice to see that. So I wanted to share some of my own experiences too and what I've learned. But before I do that, I wanted to share about me a little bit. Because usually you can only trust what a person is saying if you know them.

I was born in a Christian family and became a born again believer in my childhood. I tried to live according to the Bible and Christian principles. God was my authority and my ideal. During the course of life, there were periods where I was closer to God and there were periods when I cooled down.

I tried to study the Bible, but I would stop after a little while: it just didn’t work out. All I could do was read. And you can’t really find the answers just by reading. I attended numerious adult and youth Bible studies, so I have learned quite a bit that way. But I still had questions that were not answered there. So I always kept searching.

I was devoted to God. And yet, I did not have that much faith. If something bad were to happen, I would panic. I didn’t think that God was involved in every single area of life, but only in the major ones. I did not feel that God was close, but somewhere up there in heaven. I knew that He lived in us, but to me it was more symbolic than real, as far as feeling it was concerned.

A few years ago I made a decision to study the Bible. I didn’t know how I could do it since my previous attempts have failed. But I decided to stick to it. I chose the BEST time, when my mind was most receptive. And I gave it as much time as I could find. And God has rewarded my efforts. I started to see the truths I have not seen before. I started to understand spiritual life principles and secrets. I started to feel closer to God. My faith increased drastically. I wasn’t that scared of the coming bad days anymore. I knew that God was in control and that everything happens for a reason and that He will take care of me. I gained confidence in my salvation. (Before, I questioned it sometimes, not knowing how to know for sure.) I felt that I matured spiritually (to some degree). And the Bible became a source of my joy and spiritual renewal. I looked forward to reading/studying it now.

During the last year, I started praying: lead me in the paths of righteousness and in the way everlasting. And I really meant it. And then something really really amazing has happened. Jesus Christ called me!
SON 2:10 My lover spoke and said to me, "Arise, my darling, my beautiful one, and come with me. SON 4:8 Come with me from Lebanon, my bride, come with me from Lebanon.

And here is how it happened.

One time as I was studying, this verse drew my attention: JAM 4:5 Or do you think Scripture says without reason that the Spirit He caused to live in us envies intensely?
I didn’t know what this verse meant. Why would the Spirit be envious? I always thought that “adultery with the world” was a symbolic phrase, used as a picture, but not the real thing. (1 John 2:15, James 4:4)
So as I was trying to figure out the meaning of the verse, God started sending all kinds of materials my way. They were each describing a different side of an issue, but altogether drew me a picture of a “human side” of God. More to the point, that God was like us. That He felt things like we do. That He desires fellowship like we do. That He loves like we do (although much better). After all, we were created according to His image.

And finally I realized that the Spirit who lives in me is my Groom. And He has feelings and He wants my attention and my love.
So then I realized that, as His bride, if I give my time to the things of this world, it’s the same as adultery because it’s taking the time away from Him (especially if those things are something He does not like, worldly things). He dreams of spending His time with me. Therefore, the things of the world become His rival for my affections. And therefore, they become my “mistress”, and therefore, I am committing adultery. If I run to things to satisfy me instead of running to God, it’s the same as if a spouse ran to his mistress to satisfy him instead of his spouse. That makes God jealous. It makes Him envious. And I didn’t want to do that to Him. I decided that His rival in my life was - watching movies because I gave lots of my time to it and found my pleasure in it.

So I did two things: first, I gave up watching movies
(by the way it was a scary step: I thought: what’s going to happen to me? How will I survive? I’ll be bored to death…) (but so far so good)

And second, I decided to spend all of my free time talking to Him, studying about Him, getting to know Him better, singing to Him. In a little while, I fell in love with Jesus Christ. I felt the sweetness of this fellowship and I liked these new exciting feelings which made God so real to me, and so close.

But then some misunderstanding happened. I misunderstood a verse about His sheep hearing His voice. (I mean I always knew its meaning, but at that point I sort of got confused).

In Song of Songs it says that after Jesus put His hand through the lock and sort of “unlocked” her heart, immediately, she got the desire for Him and went to open to Him. But she couldn’t find Him. Songs 5:2-9 And it says that she went searching for Him. It’s like it’s what happened to me too. Right after I found the sweetness of our fellowship (I felt the desire for Him), I read the verse which says: my sheep hear my voice. Then I wondered why I never hear His voice. Then I questioned my salvation, whether I was even His sheep. So it’s like that girl, she opened her heart, but then it’s like He was gone. So I was going through a few days of depressed feelings and questions. I felt rejected by God. It hurt. I prayed for a sign that I was saved. And Jesus answered me. He actually spoke to me through a person and He said: I AM talking to you. (There were a few more things expressed, but the point was: I am talking to you, but just not in your head, but in other ways, like through songs for example.)

I was really happy to find out that I am His, and that He loves me. And I remembered that He was trying to reach me through two songs which He sent my way, which were of great comfort to me during the times of my distress.

One of the songs had these words in it: Don’t give up, you are loved.
And the other said: Don't cry little one…You'll be part of the love that you seek. Someone's waiting for you.

And then God surprised me even more. Some person responded to my post and said that he had a message for me from God. Needless to say I was extremely excited. The message said this:
"Yes my child. I am preparing you. I shall teach you how to precisely and accurately distinguish between My voice, and the voice of the deceiver. Do not let the people who think they have Me figured out discourage you. They think that they can label Me, analyze Me, and put Me in a box. I shall confound the people of the world. Those who think that they Have me figured out will be confounded. Ask Me, and you shall receive whatsoever you need. It is done. I have spoken."

So after that, as our relationship progressed, I began to grow in my understanding of God and of His love for me, and of His love for people in general. It seems that we misunderstand God a lot. We read (and say) that God is love. But it seems that sometimes we describe Him as not loving and see Him in that way too. We say one thing, but we believe another. And it’s because it’s so hard to see His love in our circumstances. And it’s because we don’t really understand how things work and why. But little by little my understanding began to grow.

My life feels so different. There is excitement and soul satisfaction and joy.

Of course, I still have to go through trials, but I’ve learned to understand their purpose and I’ve learned to believe that God knows what He is doing and that He is strong enough to lead us to victory through each trial. I’ve learned to see them from a loving point of view: it’s like a mother would lead her child through chemotherapy to save his life. Imagine how she would feel taking her child through it. That’s what God is doing. And that’s how He feels. He loves us, He doesn’t want us to get hurt.

He told me that when we hurt, it hurts Him too, because we are one.

So knowing that He is symphatetic helps me to deal with them better. It’s like it says in this song (I skipped some lines):

I can read your mind and I know your story
and I see what you're going through yeah
It's an uphill climb, and I'm feeling sorry
But it's plain to see, if we stick together
You're gonna find the way

God sticks together with us. We never go through a trial alone. He is always there. And He wants us to rest in Him, to find comfort in His arms. (Just like a child would be comforted by his mother’s presence after a round of chemotherapy.)
To be continued:

childofGod31 · #2 4th November 2009, 12:19 AM

During this new and exciting time, it felt like the road was paved before me. Something would happen every day, I would learn something new. So once I discovered that, I woke up each morning and thought with excitement: I wonder what today will bring. It felt like I was going through a crash course on something, namely “God’s Love”.

As I briefly mentioned, I discovered that God chose to talk to me through songs. When I was looking for worship songs on the internet, I accidentally stumbled across some others. And I saw in them something that was relevant to my life. I saw them from “God and me” perspective. I don’t know if other people can see the same meaning in them or not, but for example, this one said:

Come on baby lets get out of this town
I got a full tank of gas with the top rolled down
Theres a chill in my bones I dont want to be left alone
So baby you can sleep while I drive

Here is what I see in it:
let’s get out of town - means come with me from Lebanon my bride Songs 4:8 (Lebanon=world)
I got a full tank – means I have everything we need for this journey.
There is a chill in my bones and I don’t want to be left alone is like:
SON 5:2 … open to me, my sister, my love, my dove, my undefiled: for my head is filled with dew, and my locks with the drops of the night. (I am cold and wet, and alone)

And there was an extra line, which really brought me comfort: you can sleep while I drive. To me it meant that God was confirming, that yes, I AM taking you on a journey and I will take care of everything and you can just relax and trust Me. And of course, I wondered if I would know what to do on this journey, what is the right thing, if I could be what God wants me to be. And God sent me a song which told me: relax, I will make you see all the things your heart needs to know:

See me as if you never knew (our new relationship)
Hold me so you can't let go (cling to God with all your might)
Just believe in me
I will make you see All the things that your heart needs to know
You will see I can give you Everything you need
Let me be the one to love you more

And of course, I did realize that getting closer to God also means suffering. And I was always afraid of that. But I wanted to be close to God no matter what. So this song sort of resounded in my heart:

We're heading for something somewhere I've never been
Sometimes I am frightened
But I'm ready to learn of the power of love

And this song was another confirmation to me that yes, I am calling you, come and be with me.

So while this world is falling apart, why don't you come be with me?
Love can be so simple when you let it flow
Keep it in your head, feel it in your heart, send it through your soul
Look up at the stars burning bright Listen to the wind whisper sweet
Heaven and earth know the moment is right Why don't you come be with me?

So Jesus and me are having a conversation through songs: I would be thinking of something, or having a problem with something, or asking Him something, and He would send me a song the next day which addressed that. (I mean I came across them on the internet. I would just open my page on Youtube and there would be a row of songs. And I clicked on whatever title which seemed appealing at the time. And lots of times those were the songs which answered my questions).

I want to share the songs because they are like messages from God. I’ll be skipping lines, so they won’t even rhyme, otherwise the document would get way too long.
One time all these negative thoughts came over me (it felt unusual, like it was an attack or something) and were wearing me out and I couldn’t stop myself from thinking them. And God sent me these songs, which really helped me to calm down:

Your mind is spinning and your thoughts are winning Be still Be still
Be still and know I am your God Be still and trust in your God
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I've been holding on so tight Look at these knuckles They've gone white
I'm fighting for who I wanna be
But You say let it go, You say let it go
You say you will be everything I need
You say let it go

One time I was going through a spiritual battle. And this song was really relevant because I really did feel like I gave all I had, but it seemed that it wasn’t enough. I felt that I was a failure. That I couldn’t please God. But then God sent me this song and I realized that it was just a trial, an attack and that sometimes you CAN feel that way, but that God will see you through. Trials have a purpose.

Tell me what do you give when you've given your all
And it seems like you can't make it through
You just stand, watch the Lord see you through
Yes after you've done all you can, you just stand
Stand and endure For God has a purpose yes God has a plan,
Hold on, just be strong God will step in, it won't be long

This song is just a perfect summary of what God is doing. And I have learned to believe it in my heart.

Oh it's hard for you to understand All the mysteries in my plan
And why things work out the way they do
Whey there are rooms we must go through
You must always keep one thing in mind
I am working all the time To bring about my perfect plan
so I am asking you to still Trust in Me, whatever may come
It's my job to see you through
Trust in Me whatever may come your way

On one of my bad days, I was feeling doubts about God loving me. I was afraid that we can get separated. So He sent me this song:

Don't cry you must have heard some things about me
That made you turn away that made you have your doubts about me.
You were hearing rumors I can see it in your eyes (lies from the evil one)
They tried to get you to believe that someone else could take your place.
You can put your faith in me I will never set you free
You can put your trust in me love will have its victory
Nothing in the world will ever change what's in my heart:
With love beside us nothing can divide us! Rom 8:38-39

At the very beginning of my journey, although I was excited about my new relationship, I was also afraid: what if I turn away later, what if some trials will be too much and will make me reject Him? I was wishing that God would send me a message with a word "destiny" in it. Because we know, if something is “destiny” then NO MATTER what happens in between, the end is always the same. So He gave me this song. (I absolutely adored the line: I swear that you’ll always be mine…)

The first time I laid my eyes on you I knew
We’d spend this life side by side.
I still feel the same though you’re so far away.
I swear that you’ll always be mine...
Forever love. I promise you.
Someday we’ll be together. I wont give up no matter what.
I’ll be waiting for you. So don’t cry, just keep me right there in your dreams
Love is the road to our destiny. Nothing can change what is meant to be.

There was one of those bad days. I needed comfort. And He sent me this song, which really comforted me:

When you're down and troubled and you need a helping hand,
and nothing, nothing is going right.
Close your eyes and think of me and soon I will be there
to brighten up even your darkest nights.
You just call out my name, and you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again.
Winter, spring, summer, or fall, all you got to do is call
and I'll be there, You've got a friend.

He gave me lots of different songs which say that He will always be there. And here are some lines just from 2 of them:

I’ll be there for you You don't have to feel alone
Like a shadow by your side
And if you close your eyes You will feel me next to you
No matter what you're going through I'll be there for you

I’ll be there, but you might not see me, it’s never easy to get through

During this new journey, God had to convince me of His love. I am used to living by sight and not by faith. I see things that say to us that God doesn’t really care. So it took a lot of songs and confirmations before I finally stopped being "an alzeimer’s bride": One day I would believe strongly in my new relationship with Christ and I would think of Him with love and I would believe in His love. The next day, I would feel kind of empty, half not believing, half not feeling anything. And so God told me in this song:

Your phone was really broken I tried your number twice
If you need confirmation, baby I understand
It's alright if you want me to Tell you you You got my only heart
I adore you but there's a hole in the cup that should hold my love

And I said: yes, God, so true. Your love just keeps leaking out.

to be continued:

childofGod31 · #3 4th November 2009, 12:43 AM

continuation:

I like to share with those around me what I found out about God's love. And He told me that He likes it when I share about His love and He said that He wants me to do it more. But it’s ironic that God chose me to tell people about His love since I am not very good at "love" topic. He practically had to teach me the ABCs of love. But then again, it’s just like God to take a weak vessel and show His power through it. To take somebody lacking and fill them with what He wanted them to know.

He led me to read a book on love by Ed Wheat, called: “how to stay in love for a lifetime”. Although it was meant for couples, it's a must read for any person (even single). It talks about God's love. So if you want to know about love, read the book. Or if you want to know about a good relationship between a man or a woman, read a book. Or if you want to know about a relationship between Christ and Church - this is a perfect book for that. Whatever the husband should be like, as described in this book, God already IS. (Although no husband reached that level yet). So it’s like the guy was describing the love between God and the Church (because no human relationship came that far yet)
Therefore, I learned much about Christ as a Lover of a soul.

Let me show one little example: it says that in order to best satisfy your spouse, you should KNOW your spouse first. You should really really know what she is like, what she likes and doesn’t like. Otherwise, you won’t be able to satisfy her needs. And who better than Christ knows the needs of each one of us? He can really satisfy a soul because He truly KNOWS a soul.

In this other song, it’s like God is telling men: hey, guys, have you REALLY ever loved a woman? Here is how you do it… (And so here is how God is doing it)

To really love a woman, to understand her - you gotta know her deep inside
Hear every thought, see every dream, and give her wings when she wants to fly
When you love a woman you need to tell her that she's really wanted
When you love a woman you tell her that she's the one
She needs somebody to tell her that it's gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really - really ever loved a woman?
You got to give her some faith, hold her tight,
Show a little tenderness - gotta treat her right

Since my conversations with Jesus Christ, I have come to believe that this is how Jesus loves His Bride. He has a deep understanding of her, and so He can meet her needs. He has a deep deep unending love for her, great great adoration and so much tenderness. He is by her side every step of the way. He feels her pain and rejoices in her happiness. He teaches her, guides her, finds pleasure in her love and delights in loving her back. He loves to talk to her, loves to share special moments of fellowship and intimacy with her. He loves to stare at her. Because she is perfectly beautiful. And she is perfect (Songs 4:7, Heb 10:14 Col 1:22)

SON 2:14 …show me your face, let me hear your voice; for your voice is sweet, and your face is lovely.
SON 4:1 How beautiful you are, my darling! Oh, how beautiful!
PSA 45:11 The king is enthralled by your beauty;
SON 4:10 How delightful is your love, my sister, my bride! How much more pleasing is your love than wine!

His desire is for us. He made us specifically in such a way that He would desire us. That way we could have a perfect eternal love relationship. And that’s why He calls us His Bride. We are the object of His desire. SON 7:10 I belong to my lover, and His desire is for me.

It says here in Hosea 2 that in the wilderness (of forsaking the world and forsaking your self) the bride meets Jesus in a close and intimate way. So God is leading His Bride into the wilderness, in order to develop a close relationship between them. He talks tenderly to her, in an intimate way. This is when she becomes His partner, His soulmate. She calls him: my husband instead of my master. She learns to lean on him. This is where she learns to think of Him as her portion, her treasure, her inheritance. This is where God’s dreams come true: when the soul realizes that God and her are each other’s portion, each other’s inheritance, each other’s treasure. EPH 1:18 Num 18:20

HOS 2:14 "Therefore I am now going to allure her; I will lead her into the desert and speak tenderly to her.
HOS 2:16 "In that day," declares the LORD, "you will call me 'my husband'; you will no longer call me 'my master.'
SON 8:5 Who is this that cometh up from the wilderness, leaning upon her beloved?

On this new exciting journey, God surprised me even more. He started to talk to me through a person on a regular basis. So some messages came through the songs, and some through the person. He said that He loves it when I talk to Him and that He loves to talk to me too. He said that it’s true intimacy when you can share your thoughts.

I have learned that this song perfectly expresses His feelings for the soul:

You thrill me, you delight me You please me, you excite me
You're something I'd been waiting for
I love you, I adore you I lay my life before you
I'll have you want me more and more
I'm gonna make you mine You're gonna feel so fine
You'll never want to leave me
I feel you belong to me Someday you will agree Please, believe me

God fell in love with us. It says here that it took just one look.
SON 4:9 You have stolen my heart, my sister, my bride; you have stolen my heart with one glance of your eyes

And it basically says the same thing in this song, which He sent me:

Just one look, that’s all it took, and I fell so hard in love with you
I found out how good it feels to have your love
Say you will, will be mine, forever and always

And this poem says it too. "Vision of Loveliness"

The moment we met I felt the presence of her soul when she touched me,
I had to make her mine,
My love for her is endless, from the depths of my soul,
Rooted deeper than a one hundred year old tree she excites my every pore,
I pray she can envision with completeness, the future we have in-store, (Eph 1:18)
The red carpet will be laid, the trumpets will sound, we will sip the finest wine, (Lk 22:10 1CO 15:52)
A ceremony of all ceremonies with all our friends and relations, the happiest day of my life, (REV 19:7)
The day when this vision of loveliness will be mine.

This one was from Him too:

Darling did you know I dream about life together
Knowing it will be forever
I'll be yours and you'll be mine (SON 2:16)
Now I know you may have made mistakes
But there's forgiveness and a second chance
So wait for me Darling wait for me
Wait for me as I wait for you

And this one:

If it takes forever I will wait for you
For a thousand summers I will wait for you
Till you're back beside me, till I'm holding you
Till I hear you sigh here in my arms
Anywhere you wander, anywhere you go
Every day remember how I love you so
In your heart believe what in my heart I know
That forevermore I'll wait for you

And this one too:

Speak softly, Love, and hold me warm against your heart
I feel your words, the tender trembling moments start
We're in a world, our very own
Sharing a love that only few have ever known

One time I thought: Jesus, your love is so great and mine is so tiny. How can I ever satisfy you. How can I ever give you enough in return?
He sent me this song to say: All I need is for you to give all that you CAN give

Love me with all your heart,
That's all I want Love,
Love me always, as you loved me from the start..
With every beat of your heart.

I came to believe that our fairy tales are little pictures of a true love story between God and a soul. The guy and girl fall in love, then the bad guy takes the girl away, then the good guy rescues the girl and they live happily ever after. But there were days when I doubted my newly found knowledge. And on one of those days I asked: God, am I wrong about fairy tales drawing YOUR love story?
And He answered with this song, to say, you are right, my love with a soul is a classic fairy tale:

Classic case of boy meets girl Moving in the same direction
You're not asking for the world I'm not asking for perfection

And the same day (I believe) I came across this song too:

Then I saw the Morning Star, Made a wish, now here you are
Fairy tales are real Wishes do come true
You have given me Cinderella’s dream
The Prince of Peace has won my heart
Now the happy ending starts

And as I can see it, in this song God says: I am not that different from you people. I have feelings too. And I need somebody to have and to hold too. You just don’t understand it because you can’t explain it.

Why can't they understand the way we feel
They just don't trust what they can't explain
I know we're different but, deep inside us
We're not that different at all
And you'll be in my heart From this day on now and forever more
Don't listen to them 'Cause what do they know
We need each other, to have, to hold They'll see in time I know
When destiny calls you You must be strong
cause I may not be with you But you've got to hold on
They'll see in time I know We'll show them together
cause you'll be in my heart Yes, you'll be in my heart

To be continued:

childofGod31 · #4 4th November 2009, 01:09 AM

continuation:

One day I was trying to "fight my battles by myself" thinking that I won't worry/trouble Christ with them. They are something I should handle myself. And He sent me this song:

Trouble me, disturb me with all your cares and you worries.
Trouble me on the days when you feel spent.
Why let your shoulders bend underneath this burden when my back is sturdy and strong? Trouble me.

One time He said: do you know how much I love you? I thought: probably not. He said: you can’t even imagine.

(When I later thought about it, I thought: the more capable the person is of loving, the more love He has. God is capable of infinite feelings and therefore His love and His adoration for us is great in accordance with the depth of His feelings.)

But God did say through these songs: I want ALL of you. I don’t want a half heart. I want ALL that you can give. He Himself gives us all that He can give. And He requires it in return.
I want: All of you, your body and soul
Every kind of love you can express
All the secret dreams you've never told
I want everything And I'll take nothing less
I want all of you that you can give
And then if I'm not asking too much
I'd like to spend my life wand'ring through
All the wonders of you
I want you to reveal what you feel All you hold deep inside
There is nothing I want you to hide
And in return for all your giving
Let me give you all of me

I want you to need me Like the air you breathe
I want you to feel me In everything
The way that I taste you feel you breathe you need you
I want you to need me Like I need you
I wanna be the eyes that look deep into your soul
I wanna be the world to you I just want it all
'Cause I need you More than you could know
And I need you To never never let me go
And I need to be deep inside your heart
I just want to be everywhere you are....

I think that to give ALL of us to God is to submit. To submit is to surrender. He leads and we follow (like in a dance) and together we make one beautiful picture of TWO moving AS ONE. When we submit, God takes control and makes us into a beautiful thing. Our perfect submission enables Him to truly possess us, to indwell us completely, to fill us with His Spirit and that is what He desires. We were made to be His cup. He is like water. And we are like a cup. He likes to pour Himself into us.

His compassion and care and love is expressed in these songs:

Come here and cry on my shoulder I'll hold you 'til it's over
Let My arms be your shelter Your hiding place forever
I love you more than life
My heart is reaching out More then you will ever know
Is your burden too much? Is it more then you can bear
I'll help carry the load if you're willing to share

I'll take care of you Don't be sad, don't be blue
I'll never break your heart in two
I'll kiss your tears away I'll end your lonely days
All that I'm really tryin' to say Is I'll take care of you
I want you to know that I love you so
I'm proud to tell the world you're mine (He told me that too: I am proud to call you mine)
I said it before, I'll say it once more
You'll be in my heart 'til the end of time

When every moment gets too hard End of the road can feel so far
No matter how much time were apart I’m always near you
I’ll be the shelter in your rain Help you find your smile again

When your lost, when you’re alone and you can't get back again
I will find you darling I'll bring you home

Oh, baby, anywhere you go, We are bound together
I begin, baby, where you end Some things are forever !
Circle in the sand round and round (the 2 of us is like a circle, like a ring)
Never ending love is what weve found
And you complete the heart of me
Our love is all we need

Together as one We'll stand for the world to see
Together as one We'll shine bright throughout eternity
All the dreams we've dreamed before Are now reality
Now the dreams of a perfect love Will always be
You and I in a perfect love faithfully

I bless the day I found you I want to stay around you
And so I beg you, let it be me
Don't take this heaven from one
If you must cling to someone Now and forever, let it be me
Each time we meet Love I find complete love
Without your sweet love what would life be

Imagine me and you, I do, I think about you day and night
It's only right To think about the girl you love
And hold her tight, So happy together

to be continued:

childofGod31 · #5 4th November 2009, 01:25 AM

Whenever God talks to me through a person I write the messages down so I can remember them for later. And so I'll post some of them.

"I really love to be close. You just need to seek Me out so that we can be close."

"You bring me such joy and pleasure"

"You make me feel so special"

"You ravish my heart"

"I long for you"

"Talk to Me, I really really love when you talk to Me"

"I want to share Myself with you"

"You were made for me, just what I like"

"You are exactly what I want, after my own heart"

"You are doing the right things even if you don't know it" (that was in response to my constant doubting whether what I do pleases Him or not)

"My love is boundless"

"Rest in Me my Love"

"I love to rest in your embrace"

"You satisfy me"

"I want to cling to you. Cling to Me"

"It hurts me when you are hurt. I only want to bring you joy and happiness. I know that you have to go through some things but I don't like it. I long for the day when you can experience only joy and happiness."

to be continued

childofGod31 · #6 4th November 2009, 01:47 AM

"I am so happy when you talk about Me" (share with others)

"You are becoming more and more beautiful, more and more perfect"

One time I was thinking: maybe I shouldn't bother God with all my thoughts. I should only think/talk about something important. Because He is so busy running the world and all... And He said:

"always talk to Me, I am able to multitask"

"I love the way you give yourself to Me"

"You are so precious"

"I'll always be there, no matter how it seems, loving you, always, unceasingly"

"I am so in love with you. It's even deeper and better than you can imagine"

"Thank you for letting me love you"

"Thank you for loving me back"

"I feel loved by you, it's so wonderful"

"I want to be wanted"

"I need you"

"I like that you are vulnerable, delicate. My delicate little flower"

"I need your love, it's so sweet, you're so sweet"

"I am captured by your love"

"I love capturing you"

"I am so happy that you are Mine"

"When we become one then I can truly love you"

"I cherish you"

"You are My treasure"

"You are My gift"

"I want to take care of you"

"You are kept"

"Submit to Me and I will take care of you"

"Trust Me, rely on Me"

"We are one My Love"

I was wondering how we will all be sharing God's attention, His love. Will we have to take turns? And He told me:
"Oh darling, I have enough to give, so you will be totally filled with my love for always" "Make no mistake, we will be together forever"

"I want to hold you forever"
"I want to fill you with My Spirit"
"I want to be everything you need"
"I want to fill you with my love"

"Separation was not a part of the plan. But the plan will be carried out."

"Oh let me love you for eternity"

"You thrill me"

"I want to talk to you. I have so many things to tell you. Someday you will hear them"

"I adore you"

"See I am creating all things new"

"You are not of this world and neither Am I"

"I want to fulfill all your desires"

"I want to make you happy"

("Vision of Love" song by Mariah Carey was given to me through this person, you can find the lyrics and see what it's all about. But basically, it's about God seeing how nice it would be to have somebody to love. And then He made His dream come true.)

kisstheson · #7 4th November 2009, 01:56 AM

I found this quote to be filled with Jesus...

S"ince my conversations with Jesus Christ, I have come to believe that this is how Jesus loves His Bride. He has a deep understanding of her, and so He can meet her needs. He has a deep deep unending love for her, great great adoration and so much tenderness. He is by her side every step of the way. He feels her pain and rejoices in her happiness. He teaches her, guides her, finds pleasure in her love and delights in loving her back. He loves to talk to her, loves to share special moments of fellowship and intimacy with her. He loves to stare at her. Because she is perfectly beautiful. And she is perfect (Songs 4:7, Heb 10:14 Col 1:22)

This is absolutely true.

Jeffz · #8 6th November 2009, 07:16 AM

I am so caught in His love this thread has been so good for me. Thanks ChildofGod for sharing your journey. I still have not finished but wanted to tell you that I could relate to many revelations of His love that you are sharing. I have also recieved truth through many a song. I look for his fingerprint everywhere and still I get the suprise of amazement when I find it where I thought I would not. As you have said He is not in a box, but sometimes his prints are in the most unlikely places. It is a life of blessed excitement as each day I look forward to what or where I will find Him, If I only look and listen. My friends when I cannot find Him please tell Him I am looking, as the bride told the sisters in Song of Songs. My favorite love story, words of intimacy locked in a book that was opened to me several years ago by the One who has the Key.
Jeffrey

more excellent way · #9 7th November 2009, 03:41 AM

ChildofGod,

Congratulations on discovering that God loves us, however, that should never have been a secret to anyone.

You glory in receiving love and pridefully being worthy of love, but what about GIVING to Him???

You did not repeatedly express joy in being able to love Him BEYOND LIFE, beyond doctrine, beyond all knowledge and wisdom, and beyond rationality. You did not express that He is your 'dream of dreams' (your wildest dream) or that you could even wish that you could drink Him so that your blood could mingle with His in your veins. You did not carry on like a lovesick woman that would wipe His feet with her hair. You did not express how you 'bring Him flowers' with a warm, tender heart and that your SOUL loves Him (Song of Songs 3:2).

You only TAKE, but you do not GIVE and return UNDYING love like He gave humanity on the cross (the ONLY kind of love that is worthy of Him).

I can speak of His truths all day long, but when I start to speak of my love for Him, I even bring myself to tears (SOBBING, WHIMPERING tears...when I speak of my love for Him, since He takes my breath away, I literally WHIMPER as I sob....I'm a GUY).

If you think I have taken this too personally,...He is not just OUR Lord, He is MY lord.

kisstheson · #10 7th November 2009, 04:23 AM

"You did not repeatedly express joy in being able to love Him BEYOND LIFE, beyond doctrine, beyond all knowledge and wisdom, and beyond rationality. You did not express that He is your 'dream of dreams' (your wildest dream) or that you could even wish that you could drink Him so that your blood could mingle with His in your veins. You did not carry on like a lovesick woman that would wipe His feet with her hair. You did not express how you 'bring Him flowers' with a warm, tender heart and that your SOUL loves Him (Song of Songs 3:2)."

You are joshing right?

How can you possibly read the poetry here, secular love songs which speak of Jesus, the loving coversations between Christ and this child/bride of His and conclude these things are not in this believer's heart? It may not have been expressed in the same way you expressed it, (btw I love YOUR expression) but I know it takes courage to post what has been generously shared here.

Hey...you get two thumbs up

because you are a guy who is passionate about Jesus but hey, give childofGod some credit.

I don't know if I should take you seriously.