Help!! I Don't Understand!!!

rainy · #11 7th November 2009, 05:30 AM

Originally Posted by james_lee

I really appreciate all the encouraging responses. You've uplifted me a lot. Just the fact that people care enough to write to me is awesome. When you have no one that really means something.

Although something that would really help me is hearing some of other peoples struggles and times they thought that God wasn't with them.

Unity in love, can I ask you something since you wrote the most. How long have you been a Christian and when was the pivotal moment in your life when you knew without a doubt that god was with you.

Hello James_lee,
There are going to be times of trial and tribulation this happens to each and every christain. It's hardest when you are looking to find your way obsticals will come in your path its how you over come those obsticals. David had obsticals to overcome but he was Gods was always there for him. David no matter what believed God would see him thru it all and God did. Reading the bible helpped me when I felt like I was alone in a really large desert. There was a time in my life I felt like no one wanted me no matter what I did it was the wrong thing. But the only who was there was God he saw me thru the death of my dad at a age 8, abusive mother and several other wonderous times in my life trials. Issues are a part of life that is what I've learned you need to give it to the lord knowing he will see you thru it all. Example below.
I was raised as a Lutheran going thru the bible when had been studding for years the Lutheran religion to make Communion. Realized there had to be more to the bible other then just studing words the pastor told us to. So I actually read the bible and became more interested in the bible and who god was and why things were the way they were. So I started to pray more and more. This was at a time I was at a very low point in my life. I had no one, I was alone and scared. No parent to turn to just the lord. He gave me strength to get thru that time. I was pregnate my husband was away I had gone into labor early and had less then a 10% chance of liveing because I lost so much blood. My son who was born 3 months early had less then 10% chance at life because he was not fully developed. He wieght 2lbs and 4oz with little chance of liveing. God was the only one who could save him. My son is 25 happy healthy young man.
I Praise the Lord each and everyday! ~~~
Here is something for you may like to look up in bible. 2 Samuel 16:1-16
Psalms 67 also may help.
Hope this helps in some way.
Keepping you in prayer my friend.

lily00 · #12 8th November 2009, 10:58 PM

Hi James! I am sorry you have had it so rough. In Romans 8:28, it says, "and we know that God causes all things to work together for good for those who love God and are called according to His purpose."

and also Jeremiah 29:11 says, "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord. "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, to give you a future and a hope."

God does love you dearly. And He could be trying to teach you how to lean on Him in these tests and trials.

When I became a Christian when I was fifteen, my entire life changed. I expected a golden road from then on, my life was already pretty much normal teen. But a week after I got saved, my mom and dad divorced, and we had to move to another city away from my friends. then memories came back about abuse, and since then, depression, self-injury constantly for 6 years. And I always kept thinking, none of this happened until I became a Christian. Of course! Satan is so angry you are a child of God now, and he is now going to seek to keep you down in the dirt. But he didn't get the last laugh with me. My God said, "Get up my Love and Fight!" and I did. and today, my life is so sweet, because it is fully devoted to Jesus.

Nothing can destroy your soul Mr. James. It is safely placed in the hands of God. No one can pluck you from your Father's hand. No one can hurt you in a way that counts anymore. You have eternal life! You are only temporarily here! No matter what you go through, you can count on God being with You. You can count on Him loving You, knowing You inside and out, and count on Him as your vindicator. Exodus 14:14 says, "The Lord will fight for you, while you remain silent." Just continue to praise Him. Sometimes it rains, sometimes it pours, sometimes it seems to pour and never stop, but one day it will, and there will be no more pain or sadness. For that You can praise God, for better days are coming!

james_lee · #13 11th November 2009, 09:23 PM

Yes, I'm fully aware that Christians go through tribulation and struggles.

But it seems that no one that is responding is really able to empathize with where I am at. Which is the same thing with anybody I talk to. I told you I'm totally alone in the world. You don't know how literal I'm being.

The only person I want to reply to this post is someone who has had absolutely no indication at all that god has ever been their life. I mean no speck of any sort of sign that he was ever with them. Because I bet all of you have.

Because if god had ever made me assured enough in any way that he existed, or was in my life, I could face anything. I'm constantly hearing stories of these miraculous times when God intervenes in people lives and they think "wow, that's god" but I've never had anything remotely supernatural happen to me. Never even seen a ghost.

The thing is I don't want someone to respond telling me all the wonderful things god does for them. How god came through for them. I know those people already. I'm looking for people that feel hurt, betrayed by god. Feeling like he's left them. Feeling like they've done so much for everybody but receive nothing from anyone but curses. Who feel totally undeserving of the horrible things that happen to them. of Having to live through everyday with the uncertainty that God will ever come through for them.

Thats the sort of person I want to talk to. So if that's you, I need to talk to you desperately.

James