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I don't really know why I'm posting here. I haven't been to CF in ages. I'm like two and a half-ish years clean from cutting.

I feel like I'll always be cutter. Like it'll always be my gut reaction to stressors. Does anyone else feel the same?

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Yes. I've been clean for a year and four months, but I definitely still get urges more often than I feel that I should. I'm not sure it's ever going to go away.

I didn't SI for 25 years, but it was still my immediate reaction when I hit a hard time in my life.
It doesn't go away, but I think we can find ways of averting it.
Praying for you, sweetie.

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hmmm, Honestly, I don't know if I agree or disagree.
Something like cutting is alot harder than other coping methods to dissociate with, due to the quite literal fact in most cases, that we carry it with us on our person where ever we go. It's abit hard to not feel like a cutter when your seeing your scars daily.

as to why I disagree.. it's allot harder to say, I managed 2yrs before cutting of late, but during that time.. honestly I don't feel I was ever in much of a battle with my urges, and as to the relapse.. it's far too long of a story for here. It is quite possible I suppose that I just have a gut reaction to disagree because, it's a nicer option to keep in mind for my future.

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I am five years without cutting and somtimes when i am really really stressed there is a little part of me that would still do it, but i think the longer you can go without cutting the more coping skills you develop in place of it.

All that said i think the scars will always remind me i was/am a cutter, and i hope the Lord will use me to try steer other's away from that path.

God Bless all of you
Leo

when I get overwhelmed I will sometimes get the urges. It isn't because "cutter" will always be in me though, but because Satan knows my weaknesses, and time after time again, he is going to target my weaknesses, because he hates to see any of God's children walking in the freedom of Christ. I have friends who after four years, have urges once in awhile. But the farther away from it you get, the less urges you have. It only makes us stronger and closer to God every time we say NO. If we couldn't handle it, God wouldn't allow it. But because He loves us, He says, "Get up, my Love, and fight." Because each time we say no to self-injury and yes to the freedom and love of Jesus Christ, we are bringing God glory, and that does not go unrewarded.

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