| 15 and need help in prayer
During this summer, i experienced the worst day of my life. I was woken up by two police men who were armed. They politely told me to get dressed and come downstairs. As i did i saw about 5 police men in my living room. I later on found out that these policemen were ICE members. They had traced our IP adress from someone downloading what they think to be child porn from limewire. They took all our computer's and left telling us they would tell us the results in 3 to 6 months. After they left, i couldn't stop thinking it had to be a dream... Later on my dad came to me and talked to me that he knows that he had committed a sin and that he had a problem. Now please don't take him as a bad man, he is the most loving, caring dad i could ever wish for; always putting me first, always making sure my life is wonderful. I love him with all my heart and soul. Understanding he doesn't have a girlfriend and is divorced, i forgave him. He went to his pastor the next day and tried to gain God's forgiveness. A couple weeks later he was babtized by the same pastor, and felt much better. However, I did not and still do not. I keep thinking that the police are going to show up at the house and take him away from me. It's ruining my hapiness everyday. I pray to God about it every night, asking Him to take away the pain. Asking Him to forgive my dad, and for the police not to take my dad away from me. I love him far too much!!! I don't know what i would do if he left. This experience led me farther from God at first, however, now i want to be closer to Him. I have been reading the bible more often, and attending church more. I find myself asking why. Why does this happen to me Lord? I know this to be wrong, and i shouldn't doubt the love that God has for me. But sometimes i can't help it. Any advice? Please pray for me and especially pray for my father. He has learned what he did was wrong, and is working hard to get closer to the Lord as I am. I beg of you, this has been affecting my life so much. Everyday i am overwelmed with horrible thoughts about my dad leaving for jail. Please keep my father in your thoughts and pray for him. Also, if you have any advice on how to get to know God better, and how to be closer to Him, it would be greatly appreciated. One last thing, to keep from posting little things, I too have a problem with lust. I see girls in the hallway in my school, and say wow she is really hot. This is bad isn't it? Thank you for your time it really means a lot to me!
May God Bless!!  | 
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