Sometimes I feel like I am forgotten. I'm sure many other people do too.
People without anxiety or panic may never feel like this. They go through school, graduate get married and have a job or career that they like.
People with anxiety or panic may never achieve these things. We may be stuck in our houses unable to make any friends and to enjoy life.
There are many other people who may be in this category also. I hope others don't take their lives for granted because I know they would not want to trade places with people like us who are -
God's forgotten ones.
I know exactly what you mean. I feel like I have been robbed of a normal life because of my fear and anxiety. You are right that people that don't experience this don't know what it's like. That's probably the hardest part of it all; feeling like you're alone. And, yes, we feel like we are forgotten even by God Himself.
Anxiety disorders are a bona fide mental illness that is unfortunately less understood than others. I think the rate of success in coping with the illness is very low. It's no surprise that people take their own lives over this.
Just know that you are NOT alone. We can all fight this together as God's Children. I will pray for you and I hope you will pray for me as well.
__________________ If you feel that you can't go on
And your will's sinking low
Just believe and you can't go wrong
In the light you will find the road
- In the Light
Anytime somebody needs you
Don't let them down, although it grieves you
Someday you'll need someone like they do
Looking for what you knew
I'm telling you, now
The greatest thing you ever can do, now
Is trade a smile with someone who's blue, now
It's very easy, just..
I can relate a lot to what you say, Catholic Friend. While I do not suffer with extreme social anxiety I sometimes feel alone because most of my friends are married and now have families, including grandkids, and spend most of their time with them and with the result I see very little of them. Moreover I have lost friendships both on and offline this year and it has left me bereft though the Lord is healing me. There are times when I feel everyone else is enjoying their lives while mine is passing me by. It didn't help matters that one of my exfriends threw my difficulty in making friends back in my face, basically telling me it was because I was a horrible person. For a long time I believed that but am slowly seeing it is not true and am (very) slowly making friends which is an answer to prayer.
__________________ Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
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Everyday I have to remind myself of who I am in Christ. It's not easy to do. Most days I am not successful at convincing myself that I am His beloved child. I've had Christians tell me that I'm demon possessed, I don't have enough faith or I must not really be saved. They tell me that as long as I "wallow in self-pity" God isn't going to use me for anything.
I have sometimes days where I plead with God to either cure me or kill me. I would be lying if I said that I never tried to do the latter myself. My last attempt was about three years ago. God has chosen for me to stay alive. That tells me that He is using me for something.
Everyone has a story to tell. Christians have a Saviour to serve. I often hear of Christians who lived through remarkable things like a bad car accident and how the Lord got them through all of it. I don't understand how come people don't notice that about those of us who have mental illness issues?
I really have a hard time with agoraphobia. I go to church almost every Sunday. That's hard for me. Why can't people see that is not me "pulling myself together" but rather God working in me? It's Him who gets me to church. It's Him working in me and through me.
Rain going to church is hard for me too, but I keep praying on it. I think I am getting closer.
I think I I find some nice people or even one nice person who could listen and pray for me.
Before in another church group someone helped me to get through the first few months of the group.
I became more confident and I wanted to be a more a part of things.
I pray that God will give you a chance to get started again. That's what I am doing. It's going slow now, but I keep seeing myself meeting new nice people and looking forward to a new group.
That is all I can do now for now, but it helps me to have hope that I can start over again. I want to go to a few things first to get used to church again and then later maybe I can join a group. I pray that things will work out for you.
Thank you Catholic Friend. Most Sundays I make it to church, but it's still hard to make myself go. I start having problems Saturday night, I can't go to sleep. I barely get up in time to get my clothes on and out the door for church. I usually show up unshowered, but with clean clothes, brushed hair and teeth. It's frustrating. I'd like to be able to go like I used to, with all my make-up on and looking as nice as I can.